Hallo Diary,
I'm feeling betta today. Am learning to look at the brighter side. :) Though my ulcers are breaking out again.
Wish mom is here soon. Missing her terribly.
Missing you God.
Lov,
dory
Friday, February 13, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Forgiveness begets forgiveness
" Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy" Matthew 6:14-15
"You must be merciful, as your Father is merciful. Don't judge other people and you will not be judged yourselves. Don't condemn and you will not be condemned. Forgive others and people will forgive you. Luke 6:36-37 (NIV)
( The Message) Luke 37-38"Don't pick on people, jump on their failures, criticize their faults— unless, of course, you want the same treatment. Don't condemn those who are down; that hardness can boomerang. Be easy on people; you'll find life a lot easier. Give away your life; you'll find life given back, but not merely given back—given back with bonus and blessing. Giving, not getting, is the way. Generosity begets generosity."
Lord, just as you have taught me. I will obey your ways. Let me response and not react. My identity is in you. Let me know be tested beyond what I can bear but Father, bring me into a deeper level with you. Loving and trusting in you.
Lov,
Your beloved
"You must be merciful, as your Father is merciful. Don't judge other people and you will not be judged yourselves. Don't condemn and you will not be condemned. Forgive others and people will forgive you. Luke 6:36-37 (NIV)
( The Message) Luke 37-38"Don't pick on people, jump on their failures, criticize their faults— unless, of course, you want the same treatment. Don't condemn those who are down; that hardness can boomerang. Be easy on people; you'll find life a lot easier. Give away your life; you'll find life given back, but not merely given back—given back with bonus and blessing. Giving, not getting, is the way. Generosity begets generosity."
Lord, just as you have taught me. I will obey your ways. Let me response and not react. My identity is in you. Let me know be tested beyond what I can bear but Father, bring me into a deeper level with you. Loving and trusting in you.
Lov,
Your beloved
Felt Cheated
This morning was a big blow to me. I felt cheated. I do not know what to make up for it but I can not deny the ways I feel now. What I can do now to hide my emotion is to substitute it with work. Other than that, I will let God heal my sorrow. Jc, JC, you have kept pushing the boundaries. I'm losing hope.
If only God knows. But I believe God does. In fact HE has pre-empt me from the below:
"Stop trusting in man,
who has but a breath in his nostrils.
Or what account is he?" Isaiah 2:22
I'm beginning to be awaken. My eyes are seeing. My heart is feeling. I'm growing. Learning to place my hope and trust in the Lord and stop hearing about lies. No more lies. I hate liars.
To forgive or not to? Too much talk, no action. Show me actions and I will see.
Loving you father,
dodo
It hurts to be where I am. I don't understand why and I'm not sure what have I done wrong. Have I not been obeying you, papa? Ive I not? But, I still believe in you. I know all things will work out for those who trust in you only.
If only God knows. But I believe God does. In fact HE has pre-empt me from the below:
"Stop trusting in man,
who has but a breath in his nostrils.
Or what account is he?" Isaiah 2:22
I'm beginning to be awaken. My eyes are seeing. My heart is feeling. I'm growing. Learning to place my hope and trust in the Lord and stop hearing about lies. No more lies. I hate liars.
To forgive or not to? Too much talk, no action. Show me actions and I will see.
Loving you father,
dodo
It hurts to be where I am. I don't understand why and I'm not sure what have I done wrong. Have I not been obeying you, papa? Ive I not? But, I still believe in you. I know all things will work out for those who trust in you only.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Good day at work
wahseh.. a very good and productive day at work.. All pending stuff are follow-thru. :) phewww..:)
i'm drinking loads of water, barley, crysanthemum.... there are 3 ulcers on my tongue, a few on front of my mouth and left and right side of my mouth.. sakitnya,.. whenever i eat my food, the pain makes me want to tear my tongue apart..
its that painful..
tolongg GOd..
i'm drinking loads of water, barley, crysanthemum.... there are 3 ulcers on my tongue, a few on front of my mouth and left and right side of my mouth.. sakitnya,.. whenever i eat my food, the pain makes me want to tear my tongue apart..
its that painful..
tolongg GOd..
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Bored
I'm bored at work today. Not that Ive nothing to do but my mind is distracted by things. Stuff about the past, present and the future. All in all, I'm kinda bored with things.
Hmm.. If only there is something to look forward to.
God, I want to surrender my all to you. Father, please keep me in check. The desire that you have in me, please bring it out onto the surface. Father, I do not want to go ahead of you but I want to be sure that I can be where you want me to be.
Father, I pray for clarity. I pray for focus. Show me what you have. Where u want to leads me.
Father,
I'm waiting..:)
Hmm.. If only there is something to look forward to.
God, I want to surrender my all to you. Father, please keep me in check. The desire that you have in me, please bring it out onto the surface. Father, I do not want to go ahead of you but I want to be sure that I can be where you want me to be.
Father, I pray for clarity. I pray for focus. Show me what you have. Where u want to leads me.
Father,
I'm waiting..:)
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Frustration
Grrr.... A friend called today asking to catch up. I was cornered where I have to make a time to meet this person. I gave many choices to this friend and this friend of mine has the guts to say that there were no choices given.
Grrrrr... As much as I want to be there for this friend, yet, my patience is tested.
As much as I want to choose who I want to spend my time with, I do not like someone to step into my life and question how I choose to spend my time.
Hmm...
The conversation left a bitter taste at the end.
My gosh.. Friends.... they are good yet sometimes, makes one want to "cekik" them to bits..
dory
"just venting.."
Grrrrr... As much as I want to be there for this friend, yet, my patience is tested.
As much as I want to choose who I want to spend my time with, I do not like someone to step into my life and question how I choose to spend my time.
Hmm...
The conversation left a bitter taste at the end.
My gosh.. Friends.... they are good yet sometimes, makes one want to "cekik" them to bits..
dory
"just venting.."
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
My Prince of Peace
Scripture
'The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,' says the LORD Almighty. 'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the LORD Almighty." Haggai 2:9
Observation
The Lord continues to speak to His people through Haggai. The Lord revealed that He will shake the foundation of the earth and He affirmed that He will continue to cover his chosen people in regardless whether they have been defiled. The Israelites are the chosen people of the Lord and I see the Lord has great compassion in his people when they repent and obey the Lord.
Gods' promises never failed and assures his people over and over again.
Ive two definition for the "house". 1st=> Temple ie Life XP and 2nd=> me, the temple of God. I will dwell on the 2nd.
God promises that we, His children will be greater than our forefathers. We have the Holy Spirit with us as our guide, counsellor, protector, prompter..etc. Father, promises that in regards of the situations around us, He will grants us peace deep within us. Nothing will shake us because we are standing on Him , the ROCK.
Application
I will continue to focus in HIM for I know I will never been shaken. All those deceptions, I will cast away. My past is in the past.
Pointless to dwell in the past. I want to receive the PRESENT for it is a gift to me. Any hindrances and past emotional ties I cast it away in the name of Jesus Christ. Father has already RE-DEEM me and Ive nothing to fear.
Father is my Prince of Peace, Wise Counsellor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father. If He is protecting me, who can be against me?
Prayer
Father, thank you reminding me that I AM YOUR daughter and I'm standing firm in you ALONE. Who I am, my identity is not in JC, my work, my relationships, my surrounding, my country but I'm in you. You say I am beautiful, love, cherish, admire, care for, protected, esteem, secure...My life and destiny is in your hand. I trust you to bring me to a whole new journey in life. Guide me on this journey and prepare me to be there for others as well.
Loving you heaps,
Dolemi..;) muaks
'The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,' says the LORD Almighty. 'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the LORD Almighty." Haggai 2:9
Observation
The Lord continues to speak to His people through Haggai. The Lord revealed that He will shake the foundation of the earth and He affirmed that He will continue to cover his chosen people in regardless whether they have been defiled. The Israelites are the chosen people of the Lord and I see the Lord has great compassion in his people when they repent and obey the Lord.
Gods' promises never failed and assures his people over and over again.
Ive two definition for the "house". 1st=> Temple ie Life XP and 2nd=> me, the temple of God. I will dwell on the 2nd.
God promises that we, His children will be greater than our forefathers. We have the Holy Spirit with us as our guide, counsellor, protector, prompter..etc. Father, promises that in regards of the situations around us, He will grants us peace deep within us. Nothing will shake us because we are standing on Him , the ROCK.
Application
I will continue to focus in HIM for I know I will never been shaken. All those deceptions, I will cast away. My past is in the past.
Pointless to dwell in the past. I want to receive the PRESENT for it is a gift to me. Any hindrances and past emotional ties I cast it away in the name of Jesus Christ. Father has already RE-DEEM me and Ive nothing to fear.
Father is my Prince of Peace, Wise Counsellor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father. If He is protecting me, who can be against me?
Prayer
Father, thank you reminding me that I AM YOUR daughter and I'm standing firm in you ALONE. Who I am, my identity is not in JC, my work, my relationships, my surrounding, my country but I'm in you. You say I am beautiful, love, cherish, admire, care for, protected, esteem, secure...My life and destiny is in your hand. I trust you to bring me to a whole new journey in life. Guide me on this journey and prepare me to be there for others as well.
Loving you heaps,
Dolemi..;) muaks
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