Bring it ON...:)

Just as Ive chose to obey Him, here comes another bigger challenge. Deep within my heart, I know God has been preparing my heart to embrace this challenge.

During our house church prayer meeting on Monday, Greg prophesied that I need to re-focus my eyes again on my Lord and let him colour me once again. At the moment, I am a silhouette that is colour-less. Just yesterday, during my devotion, my Lord advised me to "bind His command & teachings on my fingers; and write them on the tablet of my heart" Proverb 7:3.

Getting back to my bigger challenge, yup, I will be facing my challenge starting this coming Saturday, 1st Nov 08. The best part is that God is with me since Day 1.

Time to release!
Time to let go!
Time to SOAR again
Time to Fly high
Time to be FREE

Time to Love
Time to Share
Time to Pour His Light into the WORLD.

Rejoice in the Lord, I will say again, Rejoice! Phillipians 4:4

If God is for me, Who can be against me..:) AMEN!!! :)

Loving you always, Papa.

Doremi

Dying to Self

God was already at work in molding and refining my character a few days before our "40th days of Fasting & Prayers" commenced.I do know that Father would not allow any impurity to rest in me. Therefore, after much heated drama mixed with tears over the weekend, (Accumulative Events), Ive got my listening point this morning. Ive made choices immediately. As His image barrier, I chose to be vigilant with "cleaning" out the impurities that are in me.

My Listening Point

Scripture
John 4:46-54 (New International Version)

"...The man took Jesus at his word and departed." Luke 4:50

Observations
The above passage depicts Jesus' healing of a Government Official's son who is dying from sickness. The man came all the way from Capernaum to Cana  to beg Jesus to heal his dying son. Although Jesus made a sarcastic remark at him, this man persisted with his pleas. Out of compassion, Jesus asked him to leave and said that his son will be healed.

This man believed and returned home. I marveled at the faith that this man have in Jesus. When Jesus asked him to leave and said that his son will be healed, he simply obey and left just as Jesus said that. He left immediately. Let me detail the process of faith that this man had.

THE POWER OF BELIEVING (FAITH in JESUS)

(1) It only took one story where Jesus turned water into wine for this man to believe that Jesus can heal his son (Faith to Believe)
(2) He travelled over a distance of more than 1 day & over the mountains to meet Jesus. (Courage)
(3) He (a Government Official) begged Jesus to heal his dying son (Act of humility)
(4) The man persisted in his pleas even when he was told off. (Persistency)
(5) He heard, believed and obeyed Jesus' word to leave and that his son will be healed. (Obedience)

Result of Faith
His faith (belief), courage, act of humility, persistency, obedience in Jesus saved his son.


Application
Ive been struggling in letting go of this "controlling" behaviour that resulted from my past hurts. I realized that my controlling behaviour came from fear.

Today Ive made a choice. A choice to overcome. To Let Go of my fear. To let my past DIED for Good. To be renewed. I believe that the Lord wants me to be free from this bondage. I'm deeply encouraged by the faith that the man has in Christ. I will obey just like the man, in faith, courage, humility, persistency and obedience. In Him, I will overcome and be free. This conviction only comes from His Words and by the power of the spirit and not by my own might/strength.

Prayers
Dearest father, thank you for setting me free to truly trust, be vulnerable and to dare to love the very person that you have blessed me with. In you, I will obey. I will trust in you and JC.

Love,
Doreen C.

What is True Love?

I was angry this morning at ********. Upset at the indecisiveness of *******. After what we talked and agreed upon went down the drain. Grrrrr.. Instead of me pouring my anger at *******, I cast my anger to GOD instead. After all, He is my father and he knows me inside out. I'm not afraid to pour out to Him.

I'm trying to dissect the reasons for my anger. Will it be because of pride wounded, feeling abandoned from the agreed plan, disappointment, mis-managed expectations or just plan angry???? Anyway, I know that I do not want my anger to cause the sun to set. (can't remember which proverbs this is from).

I was in the midst of letting out my steam to GOD and at the same time, there is this still voice in me that kept repeating this, "Gentle guidance. Give gentle guidance to ******". This is the listening point that is trying to still my mind, my emotion. Ive a choice to either REACT to my supposingly Righteous Anger or simply choose to obey the still small voice yet with authority in me.

I chose the latter. I know this is the way. To lay down my pride and self-righteously and response to what is right. Thus, I text ****** gentle guidance that can help ****** to make the right choice for everyone.

What a day to start with? But I truly believe if all of us truly build a relationship with God, He will guide us even when we are in the edge of bursting/ facing an unforseen circumstances.

GOD is Love and So are WE.

Love is patient,
Love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud,
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not EASILY ANGERED, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.

Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Dear God,
I thank you for guiding me this morning. If it's not because of you, I will have make the situation worst by RE-Acting to it. Father, you are my Lord, my God, in whom I will put my trust. Yes, papa, I will learn to Love like you. To response to the Spirit instead of reacting to my emotions and KOGAE.

Thank you Papa. I will obey..

Muaks Muaks..

Lov,
Doremi

Faith Faith Faith

Scripture
To these four young men God gave knowledge and understanding of all kinds of literature and learning. And Daniel could understand visions and dreams of all kinds. Daniel 1:17

Observation
Daniel and 3 of his friends were among the many young men who were chosen to serve King Nebuchadnezzar in Babylon. We all know that Jerusalem was besieged by Babylon and together with the rest of the artifacts, these men went into exile.

Daniel still hold fast to God and did not defiled himself with the best food and wine served to him and the rest of the young men chosen to serve King Nebuchadnezzar. He asked the man who is in-charged of his food to allow him and his 3 friends to have only vegetables and water. In the end, it turned out that they were looked healthier compared to the rest of the men.

Gods' favor was with them and HE gave them understanding and knowledge of all kinds ie wisdom from above and on earth. God sees that although they are in the world, but this is the world that God is sovereign and is in control in. God chose to give wisdom to those who obey and serve HIM faithfully.

Daniel was given the gifts of understanding of visions and dreams of all kind.

I'm amazed by God. His love, His compassion. Is true that the Lord is wanting to bless His children. Although Daniel was surrounded by pagans/chaos, but God is in control of the world and his faithful few. To those whom He loved, He will blessed and protect.

Application
I will obey and be faithful to my Father. What He does not like me to do, I will not do. I'm here to do the works of my Father. Ive a purpose in Life* Expedition Inc and not on how much I earn. If I have chosen $$$, I will not be in LE. It is for His purpose that I'm here in LE. Serving wholesomely, with passion, with purpose and TRUSTING HIM For provision.

Prayer
Father, I thank you for your love. I thank you for guiding me all the way and never leaving me. Just like you have protected Daniel, you have protected me. You are my place of refuge and the reason for my song. Father, oh my beloved Father, is there anyone like you? No one will ever take your place in my heart. I thank you for Joey, my family, my work, my gifts, my health.. my every being, the people around me, friends.....

Thank you that Ive can choose to LIVE LIFE to the Fullest yet at the same time, you have given me the GRACE to wrestle with uncertainties, dissatisfaction in life...

Papa, be with me..:)

no more Vroommm!

Sob sob sob.. I won't be having my car anymore. Just got it sold today, just like that. But thank God, I will still get extra $$$ for salary.

God, u are generous hoh?

hehehe..

I will trust and wait.. :)

A Time to Dance

Scripture

" 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance," Ecclesiastes 3:4 NIV

"A right time to lament and another to cheer" Ecclesiastes 3:4 The Message

Observation
There is time for every activity under the sun. There is a time to cry and a time to be joyful. There is a time to mourn and a time to dance and be cheerful. Let me remember when was the last time I truly enjoy myself. If I'm not mistaken, that will be back in February 2008 when I was back home in KL, enjoying my annual leave for a month. Hey, let me recall. The last time I truly enjoyed myself was during my ski trip with Joey and the Melbourne Uni kids in August. That was soo enjoyable.

To count by fingers, this year will be a year of growth in my relationship with Joey. Ive gained and lost "myself". Cried loads yet I'm joyful under all these circumstances. It was indeed a joy to see Joey growing in the Lord without me meddling in the process. Indeed, God is merciful. He is compassionate and full of grace.


Application
I believe Father wants me to dance, to be cheerful and enjoy all the things that He has given in front of me. It is not the time to look back at my past and let it control me. Things have changed. I have changed. Joey is not the same person. Ive gained and become wiser in many areas. God has changed me inside out and had prepared me throughout my single years. Who dares to meddle in this process that the Lord has prepared for me?

Prayer
Father, I want to commit my life into your hands. I have to admit that I'm bought at a price and you owe me wholly and solely. Let me never forget those challenges that you have brought me out off. As a result, I'm different and am a lot more stronger and wiser. I thank you for your continuous guidance in allowing me to grow in stature, wisdom and character. Father, I pray that you continue to guide, counsel, teach, educate me in all the ways that I should go.

Loving you always,
Your beloved daughter

To trust or not to trust

Another day gone by. Am waiting for my dance class to start. Been a semi-hectic day at work. Am in charge over this 100+ conference during the weekend. Yes, I'm an event coordinator cum treasurer, dance coordinator, administrator, counsellor (peers)...etc.. Yea, I'm jack of all trade.

To say I love this job, not really. To say I dislike this job, that's not true. Honestly, I'm still finding the really things that matters in my heart. One thing is for sure I love dancing. The rest are skills that I can acquired in life. For this season, I know I'm to be here serving this community and to reside in Melbourne.

I do not know what will be next but I will be here for this season. I do not know where will God brings me next in the near future, be it to go back to KL or to stay here in Melbourne but I do know one thing: I am to trust in the Lord to guide me all the way in my relationship, career, family and in the community that He will be planting me in.

As for now, I will just TRUST Him, one step at a time.