Monday, May 31, 2010

Fearless

What does it mean to be fearless?

11 You who fear him, trust in the LORD—
he is their help and shield. Psalm 115

The enemy always chooses fear to manipulate us. Our eyes are so engross in "this fear" till we cannot see the truth behind what God has made for us. The Word has again and again reminds us that we are to fear the Lord alone and all things pale in comparison to our God Almighty.

If my Lord is for me, who can be against me? Can death? Can fear of losing a relationship that important? Can loss time gives us fear?

What does it takes to be fearless of all other things that are below my Lord God? If God is indeed the creator and ruler of ALL the living and dead things, who should I fear?

The enemy always trick us into fearing the unknown, into fearing the created things

But

we are told to fear the Lord.

If our Lord is the only one whom we are to fear, should we be fearful of other things?
If I know that my Lord is for me, wants the best for me, what things or who should I fear?
Absolutely nothing!!!!!

God has foreknown me long before I was even in my mothers' womb.
God has listed me in his Book Of Life...
God has a plan for me way back then when He creates...
God knows me since the beginning of creation
My Lord knows it ALL..
Now, whom and what shall I fear?

My Lord I will trust in you, i fear you.
I place my hope in u.
U are my shield and tower of refuge.
U died for my sin and I am free because of you.
Open my eyes to see the truth and the truth shall set me free.
Father, give me courage, boldness to rise up to where you want me to go.

So, let it be. I DO.

Loving you forever,
Doreen C.

Father, I will focus in you. My mind shall stay focus in you.
You are my light.
You are my deliverer.
You are the reason that I am still alive.
I do not want to be like my idol who cannot see and hear you.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Truly blessed! :)

Scripture

Psalm 146

Hallelujah! O my soul, praise God!
All my life long I'll praise God,
singing songs to my God as long as I live.

3-9 Don't put your life in the hands of experts
who know nothing of life, of salvation life.
Mere humans don't have what it takes;
when they die, their projects die with them.
Instead, get help from the God of Jacob,
put your hope in God and know real blessing!

God made sky and soil,
sea and all the fish in it.
He always does what he says—
he defends the wronged,
he feeds the hungry.
God frees prisoners—
he gives sight to the blind,
he lifts up the fallen.
God loves good people, protects strangers,
takes the side of orphans and widows,
but makes short work of the wicked.

10 God's in charge—always.
Zion's God is God for good!
Hallelujah!
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Observation
I love it how David praised God all the days of his life. :) I want to be just like this. Indeed, Davids' life was surrounded by a lot of people who gave him practical advices but He knew deep within that He can only place his trust in the Lord Almighty.
David knew who is His DADDY :) He knew that God is the one who will blessed him with true and real blessings instead of having to go around life trying to make things work. What I can see is that David is encouraging us to depend on God instead of depending on self strength/might.

David further elaborated on who God is. He is the creator of all things, He is faithful and true to His promises, He is righteous, He protects the good, heal the blind, lifts up the down cast, protects the orphans and widows.... God is always in CHARGE, in control of all things. WOW WOW WOW!!!!


Application
My life is indeed in Fathers' hand. Father knows what I need and don't need. He KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR ME. Father will definitely take care of my all and I want to recommit my hope unto my LORD ALMIGHTY.

Who is man when God comes and tower all creations. Who can compare to my Lord? Noone.. My God is to be praised both now and forever more. Father, I love you.

Prayer
My Lord, My Lord, thank you for your loving grace. I want to know you more and say that you have INDEED been good to me and have always guide me when I am down and needing directions. Father, as I build my foundation in you, show me how can I be more like you each day. I want to make a choice to be like you, My Lord. This means there will be suffering. This part I don't really like but Father, I know that you will not place me in a situations where I am not able to bear. I prayed for my relatives to come to know you. Open their eyes to see, ears to hear and hearts to know you! :) Father, I want to be the light to those around me. U know what is best for me ya. :)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Praise be to our God, Almighty

I was given the below scripture on this faithful morning. The first thing that I do when I open my eyes is to praise the Lord! I do not know how and why, but this is what I want to do all the days of my life. I praise God for life! :)

Scripture

Psalm 138

Of David.

1 I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart;
before the "gods" I will sing your praise.

2 I will bow down toward your holy temple
and will praise your name
for your love and your faithfulness,
for you have exalted above all things
your name and your word.

3 When I called, you answered me;
you made me bold and stouthearted.

4 May all the kings of the earth praise you, O LORD,
when they hear the words of your mouth.

5 May they sing of the ways of the LORD,
for the glory of the LORD is great.

6 Though the LORD is on high, he looks upon the lowly,
but the proud he knows from afar.

7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble,
you preserve my life;
you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes,
with your right hand you save me.

8 The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me;
your love, O LORD, endures forever—
do not abandon the works of your hands.
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Observation
The Lord has answered Davids' cried for help. I can resonate with the gratefulness that David had for my Lord. Indeed, when God answered us, we are more than conquerer. We are bolder just because God, the mighty creator of the heaven and earth, the One who knows ALL THINGS, had came down and answered us. Oh wow! Just the thought of this give me great joy. How I pray that all those who are around me, will choose to believe and entrust all their "worries" unto the Lord or even, start to praise the Lord with all that they have.

God had delivered David from the pit of darkness. God rescued David. God is INDEED Davids' place of refuge. God had fulfilled his purpose for David over his lifetime.


Application
By reading the above, I am ASSURED that my life is under His control. Why do I allow doubts in when I know that I am standing in the shoulder of my Lord, the creator. Whom shall I fear? No one. Father is my Deliverer. I may not understand how things will turned out but one thing I know for sure, Gods' purposes will be fulfilled and I am looking forward to partner with Him. All other things can wait.

Prayer
To my most beloved Father, I love you, do you know that? I adore you. I desire you. Indeed, nothing can stop you from loving me. This I know very well. Father, I will choose to do your will. All other things are meaningless to me if you are not in it. Why do I have to waste time and do things with my own self-will power?

Father, my eyes are open. My ears are open. My heart is open to you. I want to learn, to grow, to create, to express all that you have given me. :) I want to live life to the fullest with you and my beloved ones.

Father, I pray for JC, KY, MC, EC, WY, TS, HK, KP, CJT to surrender their all to you. Father, may you begin to work your ways right into their hearts right now. I pray for healings for each of us who needed it. Father, do your work right now. May each of us begin to see and obey you with great clarity. I pray for grace and forgiveness among our community. I pray for immaturity to cease right now.

I pray for the below:
- not to judge others but to have compassionate and love them like how you will

Loving you always,
Doreen C.

Clarity at last

My Prayers are answered on Sunday, 9th May 2010 on 4.47pm.

My Lord is forever faithful. I was "tested" again. I was in the verge of spiraling down. I prayed and oh, how I prayed for God to help me. I want say that my Lords' faithfulness endures forever. Oh my Lord, How Great is Thy Righteousness. He heard my prayers and answered me. Praise Be to my Lord, both now and forever. The below scripture was given to me just last Mothers' Day. :) :) :)

Scripture
Psalm 143
A psalm of David.

1 LORD, hear my prayer,
listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
come to my relief.
2 Do not bring your servant into judgment,
for no one living is righteous before you.

3 The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in the darkness
like those long dead.

4 So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.

5 I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.

6 I spread out my hands to you;
I thirst for you like a parched land. [a]

7 Answer me quickly, LORD;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.

8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I entrust my life.

9 Rescue me from my enemies, LORD,
for I hide myself in you.

10 Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.

11 For your name's sake, LORD, preserve my life;
in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.

12 In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant.


Observation
I can so relate to David from the above psalm. David was wrongfully accused by the unstable King Saul. He was thus pursued by King David for no apparent reason. Saul was jealous of David and he knew that David will be stronger than him if not sooner.

I can see David was crying out loud to God for this injustice and meaninglessness. Just like me who is asking God for clarity and for Him to answer me immediately, David did the same. We don't understand why such calamity hit us but one thing we are sure is this, we belong to God. I know I have been faithful to God and just like David, I do not understand why we are put in such situation.

Just like David, my heart is dismayed. I am unsure but yet I am beginning to realise that my security comes from the Lord alone and not men, my future children, my work and all perishable things. Lord God, answered me quickly just as how David asked of you!! :)

I thoroughly love it how David still persists in doing what is pleasing to Gods' eyes instead of taking vengeance in his own hand. This is indeed a man who is after Gods' own heart. I want this too. He has also asked God to be the one who will take justice unto his hand. Why? Because David belongs to God.


Application
Wow! I just had an eureka moment. Just like David, troubles fall unto Him. He cried out to God, for God to take justice and not him. David wanted to do Gods' will and not take matter in his hand. A lot of us will want to be in control and go ahead of God but not David.
I can see that David accepted the situation he was in now. In his despair, He asked God to bring Him out of this troubles. He asked God to show him the way and his only desire is to please God and chose what is pleasing to Him. David trust God. David desired His will.
The below greatly mark who David was in the eyes of God:
- David seeks to do Gods' will
- David surrender the action to God alone instead of taking matters into his own hand
- David trusts in the Lord to give him the answer and to counsel him during this time
- David believe that God will save Him from his enemies
- David's know his identity is in God
- He knows that he is Gods' belonging
- He asked God to rescue Him just because God is who he is... God name will not be tarnished if David is rescued

What I see for myself is this: Yes, I am in a similar position as David. I do not understand why am I put in this position, but just like David, I will entrust God to be my saviour from my trouble. He will be the one who brings justice and MEANING and PURPOSE in this relationship and all I can do is to TRUST AND BELIEVE IN HIM RIGHT NOW.
My identity is in God and I believe that God will not put His name in disgrace because of WHO HE SAY HE IS. How can, you God? My main aim is to glorify GOD!
I belong to my God. You are my Father. I trust in you. All I need is to believe and for your name SAKE... for the sake of your name and your integrity.. Father, have your way.


Prayer
Father, I will place my trust in you. I will not act unless you ask me to. Father, I seek earnestly to follow your will for me. Teach me, guide me, prompt me, my best friend. Show me your way that is beyond humans' understanding. I ask forth for peace and wisdom to be with me. Just like King David, I have follow your ways before and will do in the future. My identity is SECURE in you and for you ONLY. Father, I desire to please you and noone else. Answer me O LORD.. Show me how can I partner in glorifying your name.

Father, I pray for clarity, peace, boldness.
I pray for joy, goodness, kindness, strength.
I pray for your wisdom. I pray for understanding.
I pray to do your will, not my will.

Be still and know that I am Lord, your God. Be Still...

My listening point
Don't do anything.. trust in me..
live by faith and not by sight
Open your eyes and see what I am about to do.
You will know and realise that only I, I AM who will be glorify above all things. I have the power to change the hardened heart. Be with me. Partner with me. Do not go ahead of me. Only do so, when I ask you to... only move when I prompt you. My sheep will know me when I call. :) You will know its me ... u know my voice...:)


My Lord, I love you. I desire your way. I will be still and know that you are God, My Lord.

Love love love,
Doreen C.

I will obey you!!! above all things.. even myself....

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Unexplainable

The mood that I can best describe myself now is "blank". I am in the present moment of searching for clarity. I believe my Father has the answer and I am going to seek Him for that. I shared with my HC on Thursday that I am searching for clarity in my relationship. There is so many unanswered questions that I have with me and I do not have the answer.

I believe my Father has the answers to all of it.

Father, what do you want me to listen?
What lessons would you like me to learn?

I am here, My Lord, forever waiting for your answers. I feel like a chick waiting to crack its shell to face the unknowing world out there. Do I believe in the world out there? I feel as if I am inside this "comfort" for a tad too long and I want to be free, yet I am waiting for the right moment.

Father, I pray oh, how I pray to be know the truth. Father, you are the only one who knows ALL THINGS. I need you, I want the truth. I desire your ways. Father, let me choose the way that pleases you. Father, you know what, I will only move when I get a clarity from you. Father, just like how you have spoken to me before, you will too in my current situation. You say that those who draw nigh to you, you will also draw nigh to them. Father, your promises for me shall be fulfilled and I want to claim it from you. Father, you have given me a lineage for me to hold and I want to hold this. I may not understand the result but one thing is for sure, I will trust in you.

Give me courage, give me wisdom and joy. I will stand strong when I am weak. I will be truthful to myself. Guide me, teach and counsel me.

Love,
Doreen C.