Your AGAPE LOVE for me has simply blown my mind away.
How could I NOT LOVE you for the rest of my life?
You are my source of LOVE, LIFE & PASSION.
I want to declare my LOVE for you above all relationships, calling, work & dreams.
I say, NOTHING, I mean it, NOTHING will ever substitute your PRESENCE in my life.
To me, you are EVERYTHING above all these things.
For this, I am forever thankful & grateful for YOU.
I am thankful for all that I have now & it is my HOPE to be one fine steward of all that you have granted me. Let me never take things for granted but to cherish & appreciate the relationships you have blessed me & good works that I lay my hands to do.
Thank you for this AMAZING LIFE!
I know it is going to be an EXCITING one and the BEST is YET TO COME!
Oh my goodness! Today is a day where I spent the whole day in my room. Honestly, I'm so bored but I know that I must learn how to rest.
My mind is really active, nonetheless. There are a couple of moments where I thought of going to Arrow to work, or at least, DO SOMETHING worth while.
I am wondering since when the act of not doing something is not worth while.
As my thoughts linger here and there, I know deep within my body & soul is resting. My beloved miowsy is in the room with me occasionally. I will let her out so that she can do what she needs to do. I really love it when she will make herself noticeable by scratching my door so that I can let her in. She is behaving more like a dog as the day goes by, which is a bit strange. In regardless, I love her to bits, this feline of mine which I know that God has sent to me during my lowest time!
Talking about God's perfect timing. I really , sincerely believe my God is true to His Words. There is no one who can take his place, not even my future partner. I begin to realise that human will always be lonely even when they are in a relationship. I seriously believe that I am being trained now as a single, to wholly build this understanding that at the end of the day, only he could fulfills the "vacumn" in my heart. This means, that no partner, no children, no work or calling, or things that I do will ever fulfill me. At the end of the day, when all of these things are gone, all I really need is God, no one & nothing at all.
Father, I am thankful for this learning curve. Indeed, you are MAJESTIC, you are BRILLIANT and you are my Wonderful Counsellor. I do not want to place my whole hope & need in human, things or work (not to say that they are no important) to fulfill me but you fulfill me. You love me as I am, not in what I can do. Your love for me is unconditional and I know deep within that I can do NOTHING to earn it. This is what I love about you, My Lord.... :D
My prayer is this: Father, teach me how can I follow your way in loving others. This is my Lord, AGAPE LOVE. To love others without expecting anything back from them. I am learning my Lord. I know that the way to the cross is never easy but you know papa, I know it is worth it. Just like how you have loved me, you know I am worth it, right.
There is no one like you. And for this, I ADORE you whole-heartedly.
I'm at the down side. I know, perhaps, Ive been treading high note for the last few weeks and I'm at the low season for now. Ive got gastric which does not help either. Sometimes, I wish I can run back and hide and not be involved in so many vision-like projects.
I want to go for holidays. Have not been in one since 12 months ago. Seriously, could not wait for Jan 2013 to come.
Perhaps, I need to chillex for now.. be real, be weak...
I know that I should be sleeping but I need to wind down. :)
It has indeed been a good week. IN fact, I would say it has INDEED been a GREAT WEEK! This year has been GREAT and I am so thankful and EXTREMELY grateful to GOD. He really knows my desire and blessed me with things that I have in me, even without me having to pray for it. How good is that!? :D
I am looking forward to many more good things to come. I know the best is yet to come and I am so looking forward to tomorrow night as well as Saturday! My eyes are opened and I can't wait to see what God is going to reveal to me. All is good, VERY GOOD when one choose to journey life with Him!
Father, there is NONE Like you! Who is there like you? No ONE! You know me inside out and you fulfils all my desires! Indeed, your timing is PERFECT and I know I can TRUST you in ALL THINGS! I don't have to rush things but I would say that I am in the BEST MOMENT in my life! Who says that dreams will not come TRUE? Dreams will still come TRUE when I am close to you! Father, you are AMAZING and you KNOW IT! I am grateful for you have always been faithful. You are true to your words and in you, I will not be in lack!
I am so so grateful to God. He knows my heart desire even before I ask Him. I have been asking myself when will I be able to explore the Arts more and somehow, somewhere last week, I received an email in regards to this Creative Arts workshop that is held by FGA Melbourne this coming Sunday. I proceed in checking out Theresa Dedmon Ministries and it lead me to something that is so close to my heart.
Her passion and vision for the arts within the church as well as having a Kingdom mindset for the Arts is something I can relate to. It is so assuring to know that God's timing is always perfect, just as He has planned it. Just about the same time last year, both Mel and myself were in the midst of planning our trip to Texas, US so to pursue our calling in dance. As at present, the doors for me to pursue my another creative side of me is opened for me to explore. I love oil painting.
On top of that, I love dancing. I love to create "spaces" for all creative artists to shine and do what they are destined to pursue. I love to journey with each of them so to teach, build and guide each of them in the understanding of their identities in Christ. Only through this strong foundation in Christ and a provision of a strong community for artists to learn, grow and supported by every single person within the community, they can grow securely to pursue the specific purpose they are called to.
Ahhhhh, My Lord. It won't be long, right? I am here with my eyes, ears, hearts and arms WIDE OPEN for you to direct me. Use me, my Lord. In the next few months, it will be an exact 10 years mark where you gave this vision to me. I am still here, believing and holding on to this Vision since October 2002. As at present, I am waiting for you to direct me to the next stage. Thank you for molding & refining my character. Thank you for being by my side during the low times in my life. I'm so glad that I am still here, standing firm & steady. Thank you for everything. I am indeed grateful for all that I have in the present.
How could I NOT love the Word that brings LIFE? I'm sooo encouraged, so so inspired and refreshed from your Word, my Lord.
At our Monday morning prayer meeting, I saw a vision of a deer, lowering her head to drink from the river bank. Just like a deer that thirsts after the water that nourishes her, so is my soul that yearns after God. Right after that, I saw flowers of all sizes and colours, began to sprout everywhere on the horns of the deer. So pretty. :)
"As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, my God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God"? Psalm 42:1-2
What is life, work, relationships without God? It means nothing. All must come from the Lord, our Father. I know for now, my focus will be getting back into the source that truly matters. Everything that I think, say & act, must be inspired from my day to day walk with God. It has and will always be an "inside-out" process.
I do not desire to do things at my own strength for I will labour in vain if God is not in it, in the very first place.
So there, a new SEASON of Fruitfulness is coming my way.
A season of worship & prayer.
A season of multiplication.
A season of JOY & seeing God at work.
I can so SEE it, in my spirit!
So so excited!!!! :)
Join me if you are keen to grow "INSIDE-OUT"....... & desire for a NEW ADVENTURE with HIM...
It's 6.22pm now and I am listening to Wang Lee Hom's song: Still in Love with You. I really like the tune. :)
Am feeling the brunt of end of financial year but I am not going to allow the pressure to overwhelm me. I am going to do as much as I can, one day at a time. As busy as I am, I cannot avoid the pain that my friends are going through. Yes, it is good to tick the checklist that I have but truly, being there for a friend is more important than making myself feel good by completing my work. I'm not saying that completing my tasks are not important, I am stating that relationship; people and friends are much more valuable to me.
As I was listening to my friend, I was praying for wisdom from God. I know I am not in a position to "solve" the problem but I am to be here to just "listen" and ask good "questions". I believe when one is going through "challenges", he needs someone to be there for him. I know I will really appreciate it when someone, a friend who truly care is there for me when I am in the "storm".
Scripture
"Be STRONG and take HEART,
all you who HOPE in the LORD." Psalm 31:24
Observation
King David was going through time of distress and he turned to Father Abba for help. He saw God as his place of refuge, a God who would deliver him from the evil people. He knew what God could do and the power that he had in helping him. Such is the faith that David had in God.
Application
I love how trusting David was in God. I desire to be like him. I know that this trust can only be built through years and years of devoting oneself to God. How would you know the heart of God without spending time to know this Creator? How would one know the character of God without learning and seeing all the great victories that God had pulled through for his people, for the sake of His name.
I am the daughter of the Most HIGH. Jesus said greater are those who are called in His name for He shall do an even greater things than He did. I am given the power and authority over the lies, fears and threats from the enemies. What can they do to me since I know that my Dad will not allow me to be hurt? I know God's plan is to prosper and not to harm me. I believe the spirit in me will guide, lead, mentor and train me in the ways of the Lord. I know the Spirit will be my comforter when all things fail.
Prayer
My Lord, I pray for this understanding to be with my fellow friends who are going through time of questioning about life. I pray that their eyes, mind, heart and ears will be opened to this truth for you say that your truth will set everyone who believes in you, FREE. Father, I believe that if you are for me, who can be against me. No one, my Lord. Papa, I am thankful for you are faithful and that you have never leave me nor forsake me. I pray that this understanding of who you are, our Protector will flow to every single person who is hurting right now, right here in this place. My Lord, My lord, just as you have never leave me whenever I call for your help, you will also be there for my friends. Please be there to comfort them, be their shield and be their tower of refuge.
Today is the 11th June 2012. I'm in my 30's but there is this sense of deep youthfulness within me. So many things had happened during the last few years but they seem to be "unreal" to me now. What had happened before seems to have faded away as mere "memories" to me. My life was full of ups & downs and trust me, it was chaotic back then. I could not have imagined how I had managed to rise up & overcome every single one of them with my Creator. To be honest, I am so glad that my Creator came, fought & rescued me back in 2000. I could not have imagined how my life would turned out to be without this Creator. All I can say is that it will be really miserable, uneventful, boring & worst of all, meaningless. Who knows, I may have actually marry someone I do not really loved, work in a place I do not really enjoyed and have no idea on how to nurture my kids. Life would have been miserable as I know deep within, my dreams of something "more than just these" could never, ever be fulfilled. But, hey, He came to my aid when I was just at a tender age of 21. :) *Sigh of relief*
As at Present
Ive got a calling, a purpose that is bigger than myself.
Ive got a community that I love and cherish.
Ive got younger "sisters" & housemate whom I truly adore & am taking care of.
Ive got the finances to eat without having to count every cents & having to save on things
Ive got the finances to be generous to others.
Ive got a car where I can travel to where ever I please & bless others at the same time.
I'm working with a bunch of amazing people whose hearts are set right on what is truly important.
I've got an amazing family back in Malaysia.
Ive got a few friends whom I can go to. (TB, FF, AR, JT)
Ive got a beautiful & most adorable cat, Missy Louise Cleopatra.
Ive got legs & limbs & a healthy body for me to dance my heart out.
Ive got a healthy mind!
Ive got the independence to pursue what I love.
Ive got the FREEDOM & conviction to PURSUE what I believe in.
The most important of all, I belong to this God who knows me inside out & has given me a promise that He will definitely fulfill in His perfect timing. :D
Honestly, what do I have to complain? Yes, I do, sometimes.
I am eager to see the "results" and really, I am impatient, hehehe just like my dad.
But, you know what Father,
- I love surprises.
- I love to live by faith.
- I love love love what you are about to do.
Though I do not see what is happening in the current state, but I am going to wait and see what you are about to do. While I am waiting, I desire to seek you with all my heart, soul & might. The above are nothing without you; my first love. I do not want to be called as one who has forgotten her first love. I choose you, Father. I want you. I desire to wait and obey you. What you have given me, my Lord, I am grateful and truly contented with everything that I have. Father, as for me & my household, we will worship you until the end of time, just like Joshua. I pray and ask forth, for the salvation of every single person in the Chew & Wong's clans. Father, I pray that your Words will never leave this household & I ask forth for you to bless and be the covering over myself, my family and generations upon generations to come after me. May my children be apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, professors, "rebels" who stand up for the right causes, judges, doctors, lawyers, artists, celebrities, sportsmen; men & women who desires to seek first your Kingdom and your righteousness; people who dare to stand up for injustice, for the poor, weak and the widows. Father, hear my prayers as I ask forth with deep conviction & faith.
Father, I pray that your desire will be my desire. I pray that I will not deviate from the sole purpose that you have called me to but to keep a heart that is constantly in tune with you. Father, I also pray for my future partner that he will be strengthened and he shall set his heart right with you. He shall place you as his no. 1 in his life. Anyone who does not fit the bill, please send them away from me. Father, I believe time is crucial here and I am ready to partner with the right person whom you have prepared for me. Just like Eve, I will support my Adam. I pray that you will mold & refine him. May you humble, teach, direct, mentor, guide him in your ways. May he be one who understand the true meaning of forgiveness, humility, grace & mercy and unconditional love. May he be one who will truly loves me like how Jesus loves the church & I pray for a teachable heart as well, someone who listens & understand the importance of communication & lastly, be one who is generous please!!!! :D I surrender all of these unto your hands, My Lord.
Am going through the book of Jeremiah this season. What a book. I truly admire the boldness, loyalty and faithfulness that Jeremiah had in his calling. How many of us are able to wear his "shoes"? Not many in these days. But it is precisely for someone like him, I am deeply encouraged & INSPIRED.
I have learnt that success in the eyes of the world is nothing compare to the success in the eyes of my creator. To the world, Jeremiah is a failure; but to God, he is the EXACT OPPOSITE. Jeremiah was called by GOD to plant himself in the middle of the wicked city of Jerusalem & proclaimed judgement unto God's people. The Israelites were wicked, worshiped foreign gods and turned their backs away from the CREATOR. Many false prophets took the opportunity to proclaim peace within the country but they met their faith for proclaiming lies that were not from GOD.
Jeremiah, O Jeremiah, you have opened my eyes to what success means. I simply admire your pure "stubbornness" in pursuing something that is bigger than yourselves. Though you received many threats of death & physical humilation, you stood tall and firm in proclaiming the TRUTH. Indeed, God was your ROCK & the ONE who STOOD by you when you were in the midst of self-doubts, hopelessness, fears & not to mention, suffering to the point of wanting to just end your life. But you know what, your weaknessess opens the opportunity for me to see how my CREATOR had sprung to your RESCUE almost immediately after every frantic yells, you made to Him personally (frantic yells=prayers).
I could also see that my CREATOR had never leave you nor forsake you. In every moment, HE was there for you. Indeed, HE is true to this word & promises.
Because of you, Jeremiah, there were a few faithful remaining remnants who saw, heard and acted in obedience to the truth. It is because of you, they LIVED & FLOURISHED!
Because of you, Jeremiah, I am able to see the love & mercy that my Creator had for his "rebellion" children.It is Gods' very intention to bring his children back to HIM in the end. (Reality: Many who do not understand the Creator's heartbeat would have condemned that there is no God. Their logic is that a God who loves the world will not destroy it. But, if we have allowed ourselves to research more on the context of the story, the real truth is; humanity had chosen wickedness & rebelliousness in the first place). A God who is love & just, will not allow his "people" to spiral to hell. Therefore, He had no choice but to bring forth judgment. (Love, Judgement, Discipline are needed to correct a child. A loving parent corrects/disciplines their children; a people-pleasing parent will have a "monster" specially breed from home"
Dear God, thank you for teaching me lots from this book alone. I see & I will keep on learning as much as I can while I am here, still alive & kicking. What you have called me to do, I will hang on here and not let it go. The only time I will let go is so that I could let you do what you need to do BEST in that situation. Thank you for humbling, molding and refining me. I have to admit that it is embarassing sometimes but if it means bringing the best out of me for the sole purpose of advancing the work of your Kingdom, so let it be, My Lord. I am yours. Bless my work, my relationships and all that I do & think.
Not too sure why. It seems that I may have a lot of things to be grateful for but the lack of foresight in this seems daunting. No wonder it is so true that when one may seem to have lots, have "nothing" in the end. All things without God is meaningless. It is not that I do not have God but I do not sense him. I know that it is more than sensing him. Why this emotion? Why this feeling of "loneliness"? Yet, I do know that my Lord has never leave me nor forsake me?
I know by accepting this feeling that I have now is healthy. Also the acceptance of listening to the wrong "voice" within me is alright. It is all part of growing to know myself, to discern the "real/actual" voice within me. Why I am frustrated with this slow speed? I desire to enjoy these downtime for I know it is all part of the bigger picture.
My Lord, My lord, why am I feeling the way I feel now? Why the dissatisfaction with life? Why am I having this emotion, this emptiness within me? OR is it real and just me, trying to feel these emotions?
My Lord, My Lord, hear me out. Are you out there? I know that you are and you are listening to me attentively. There is noone like you, My Lord. Who can I put my trust? No one but you alone, my Lord. IN you I place my trust. In you, I desire to follow you all the days of my heart. Father, feelings & emotions can be deceiving but there is assurance, security, consistency in you!
Without you, who am I? Without you, I can do nothing? Without the "air" that you have breathe in me, I am lifeless.
Father, I am thankful for just being able to write my heart/thoughts for you. I know deep within that there is noone like you. I'm so glad that I can be all I am meant to be & not be someone else. Father, I adore you & desire you. I love you & you are the best thing that has ever happened in my life. IT does not matter what other people think of me, at the end of the day, everyone is too busy doing what they are suppose to do. You are my lover of my soul and there is no one like you! :) Father, I adore you, I love you, I HEART of you. Father, there is noone else but you alone! :)
Even as I am listening to these beautiful songs, they remind me so so much of you. Father, as I typed this with my bare hands, it is like words are flowing right from my heart just for you. Papa, do you know that I am serenading you, noone but you ALONE. It is like playing a piano, it is not about techniques, but it is a heartfelt song that I am playing just for you alone. Father, you are my favourite audience, do you know that? :) :) :)
My Lord, I am so grateful for all that I have. My beloved family, my work, friends, my housechurch, my colleagues & Timmy, being healthy and having the ability to support myself, are all gifts from you. Indeed Father, I lack nothing. Though I am surrounded by a social norm which requires me to have a family & the security in life by now, but you know what, my beloved Father, you are my security & my identity is in YOU.
Father, this is your world and I am your daughter. I have never lack anything, my Lord. Your eyes have been on me from the moment I was formed in my mother's womb. Your promises to Abraham, my great great great great forefather still holds true up until now. I know deep within, I believe by faith, that my generations below me will be blessed, solely because of your unceasing, unconditional love for me. It is never by "work", but it is by this gift called GRACE that you have shower upon me all this while and for the rest of my life here.
Father, it is so true of what Timmy said over the Easter Retreat, if you have given me this great mission to stand up for the creative artists in your Kingdom, you will COMMISSION me to do so. You will provide the RIGHT representative with the right SPIRIT, MIND & ATTITUDE. It will flourish in your PERFECT TIMING. When October comes, it will be EXACTLY 10 years that I was given the calling to build this creative arts in Melbourne, this land that you have called me to. I would said that I have not stop pursuing this dream/specific calling that you have for me and truthfully, I wish it can be where I want to be. But, who am I kidding, deeds alone are nothing. What you have called me to do, I will still sow in it, FAITHFULLY! (by hook or by crook)
Father, I believe that when you do open the doors, no man can shut it. I have also learn that PRAYERS are the UTMOST MOST IMPORTANT THING in my life right now. Little did I know, I have begun to pray more than I even realize it these few months. It has almost become a second nature now for me to ask of you anytime I desire to communicate with you. Away with the religiosity mindset but bring in all the NATURAL WAYS that you want me to build with you, Papa. And for this, my Lord, I am grateful. If I am to die today, I have nothing to loose. All my supposedly "enemies" in this lifetime, have become my friends and will be, for the rest of my life.
Father, through you, I have learnt to forgive my parents. How silly it is to hold on to past hurts & grudges for the sake of pride and self? I am soo soo soo glad I did what you have taught me in your words. What is the point of living in segregation/outcast from the family just because I couldn't get over MYSELF? I am now REAPING the BEAUTY, LOVE, JOY, PRECIOUS & REMAINING TIME that I still have, with my parents & family. Lord, my Lord, you are the BEST. So so so glad that I "die" to self and REGAIN what I have lost before. :):):)
Papa, I love you. I adore you. I desire you.
The latest promise that you have revealed to me, I will entrust my whole being unto you.
Beloved Father, teach me how to come back to your heart? How do I have this heart of worship? Before I can ask how to bring others back to you, I need to back "home" to where I belong. Father, I do not know how to and I'm not too sure whether to start. But, may you receive this tear that comes out from my eyes. Father, I am so glad that I can listen to this wonderful music that touches my heart. Indeed, Greg Howlett's playing is amazing. It touches my heart.
How to I create movements that touches the core of every human's hearts? How do I, papa? The reason that I can do is only through a deepening of relationship with you, right? How do I do that? I love the flow of the music. The love that he has for you. I can almost feel the love relationship that he has for you, My Lord, through his music.
Where is mine?
Father, search me, O Lord. Search my heart. Search every part of me, my Lord. I have nothing to hide. You can see right through me. Let me surrender all things back to you, My Lord. I do not want to strive, to be control, to live life meaninglessly but I desire purpose. For now, I know what is my calling but I want more than that, my Lord. I want clarity, my Lord. Please guide me, direct me, teach me on where to go.
I'm at peace...because I know that I am where I am meant to be. There are so many questions that I desire to ask of you but really, do they matter now? I rather sit beside you, listening to every words that you have for me, just like how eager Mary was before, sitting at your feet. I do not want to be like Martha (though I know there is season for that) but for now, I just want you, My Lord.
I must remind myself to count all the blessings that I have, Papa, memories from the moment I opened my eyes to this world. Though the world is not what it is meant to be, but I'm so glad that you have found me, Papa. I really do not know why many yearn not your ways for them. In you, there is abundant love & FREEDOM. I enjoy this freedom Lord, to be whom I am meant to be, not by works, but by "faith".
Father, I proclaim that today is a NEW DAY. What I did YESTERDAY has gone & tomorrow is YET TO COME. TODAY is a GIFT from you. Papa, open my eyes to see all the beautiful creation that you have CREATE for me. Give me a heart of thankfulness & gratitude all the days of my life. Papa, use me to shower your unconditional love & hope to those around me. Use me to speak of your love to every single soul that comes my way. Use me, my lord. I am here. :)
Wow. It has INDEED been a year that Ive regained my life as a single lady.
Indeed, God has pulled me through this suffering. I have regained my life and have been FREE since. There was no more wasted tears and heartache. I am free to be who I am meant to be and to pursue the passion that I have been given since 2002. It has been 10 years now that I was given the calling and honestly, Father, when will I see the "fruits".
Honestly, I believe you are showing me that it is not by might nor power but at the end of the day, the success is only given out of your grace. I believe you want to see just this. It is not what I have earned and worked for, but at the end of the day, success only comes from you.
Father, I do not know what my relationships never seem to flourish, even for the last one. I believe I have obeyed you in all things to the point of suffering and laying down my life back then. Looking back, I do not have any regrets for I know that I have indeed obeyed you in all areas. But, you know what my Lord, I am not afraid of the next one for I know you have the best for me. I will trust in you wholeheartedly, by hook or by crook. There is no Father in the world who will not grant the desire that their children have. When a child's heart is in alignment with the Father, their desires unite as one.
Father, let me desire what you desire. May your will be done on earth as it in heaven. Let it be your PERFECT TIMING and I want to see supernatural MIRACLE happening for my upcoming relationship. At the end of the day, I desire for you to have all the GLORY! Show me how can I be your partner in making your name be glorified. Loving you....:)
I will be patient, Doremi79
No one will ever know the heart of a mom when their only child falls sick unless they become one. Tonight, I was given an opportunity to see the desperation of a mom and the mother of the mom. I do understand that a mom will go beyond all comfort in order to see their children be taken care of. I see it now.
I hereby, want to honor all the mothers out there for without you, we will never be where we are meant to be. Thank you GOD for opening my eyes to understand our parents in the community much much more.
Observation The entire passage is depressing. Just as what God had told Samuel from the previous chapter, both of Eli's sons died on the very same day from the battle between the Philistines and the Israelites. The death was so great that many died and the ark of covenant was captured by the enemy. Both Eli and his daughter in law died on the same day.
It was a day that I believed that the Israelites will remember for good. The baby that was borned by Eli's daughter in law was named, Ichabod, that meant "the glory of the Lord has left Israel".
I realised that the Israelites thought that they would win the war just because they had the ark of covenant with them. As I reflect on this story, I need to also observe my own walk with God. From here, I begin to realise that my relationship with my Father Abba must be a daily thing and I must not depend on the past experience. What happened before may not happen now. I need to workout my faith in action.
Application I realise that I need to act on my faith. What had happened before in getting new housemate may not happened in the present. I need to do what I need to do and allow God to work on his side. This means that I need to act out my faith dy. :)
Prayer Father Lord, I thank you for your guidance. Indeed, what had happened in the past may not happen now. I need to outwork my faith and not sit here, doing nothing. Father, thank you for your guidance. I will do what I need to do now.
It is has been confirmed. PT is moving out by 1st Feb. I'm needing a new housemate to take over our fully furnished - largest room (overlooking the lush greenery which is just right outside the window) in this beautiful retro townhouse in Parkville. I am praying by faith for someone with the following:
-mature, solid and secure, who fears the Lord! - someone who can speaks into JS' life - someone who must love my precious miow, Louise - someone who must of course able to pay the rent - someone who is clean -someone who loves people -someone who is independent
God, I believe in you. I thank you for your provision for PT. Indeed, you ROCK! :) I believe you have the right housemate for us, an even better than what I am asking for. Therefore, my Lord in your perfect timing, surprise me. I love you for you are true to your words and you are my beloved Father who knows what is best for me. :)
The time is 8.07pm and I'm waiting for my take-away dinner from BIG MAMA. Life as a single person is quite interesting. Sometimes, you wish to have a meaningful meal with someone, not so much of the food in itself but to spend it well eating with someone who shares the same passion, joy and desire for something that is more than the norm.
I'm still hoping for a friend who can resonate with me. I need a friend who is in the same level as me. But, where can I find one? God, you are the only one who knows. Therefore, I am going to pray now.
Father, I'm looking for a good friend. Someone whom I can be real and be myself. I need a friend who simply know what I am thinking without me having to express it out in words. I know that many people say that in order for one to get a good friend, they need to be a friend. I did and it always seem to me that I'm surrounded by people who "need" me. I just want to have fun and chill. I just want to spend time hanging out. :) Perhaps, they are right in front of me. Papa, please open my eyes to see them. :)
Loving you, Doremi
-------------------------------------------------------------------------- God is amazing!!! my very good guy friend whom Ive known from high school called me on the same night. He is currently in Perth and indeed he is a friend whom I can say who is my peer. There is no reservation in our sharing and believe me, we are kinda in the same situation. The best part is, we share our heart out and pray for each other at the end of the night :) God is so good. He heard my prayer! Loving Him.. :):):) Amen!
There is something about the beauty of music which has the ability to create a certain mood or atmosphere in ones' soul. I am currently listening to this cd album "music for lovers", a jazzy style music for a romantic mood. :) in this whole wide space on my own. I'm loving the "space" that I have created for myself.
After a day of "hard-work", to end the day with good music and good food are very very important. I am enjoying this space with noone to bother me. :) This is my "hanging" out space and I am loving it. :)
You know that you have indeed watched an amazing movie when you chose to blog it all down instead of going to bed at 12.28 AM. Something in me is burning to pen down what I have just seen. Indeed, I love movies that are both inspiring and above all, meaningful.
The movie that I have just watched is none other than, MULAN (2009). The movie is all about courage, leadership, brotherhood, integrity, honor, sacrifice, loyalty to your parents, countrymen and your nation. It is also about friendship and love. ;) Oh man, this movie just blew my mind away. :)
Many speak of courage but not many are willing to lay down their lives for their followers. What makes a good leader? Mulan, for one, is a woman I admire and adore. Mulans' courage and leadership had reminded me of Deborah, Israel's one and only, woman judge. I love Deborahs' courage and zealousness in obeying God. It makes me think about myself. What does it takes to stand firm and pursue what God has called me towards? I know that I have one life to live and I have better make it count. I do not want to waste it away, pursuing meaninglessness and having to "miss the mark".
Father, thank you for showing me that life is worth living when there is a purpose worth us pursuing. I pray for your wisdom and above all courage to stand firm in the land and calling that you have called me towards. I pray for favor from men and above all to hold you close to my heart. Give me ears to hear you attentively and eyes to see you clearly. As you inspire me, let me inspire many others to seek after you and never loose heart in daring to dream again. Without you we are nothing, my Lord. With you, we have ALL THINGS. :)
Some quotes that I find truly meaningful from the movie:-
"I never thought that my fear & hiding would cause the loss of my most important friend in my life. His departure has made me to understand that fleeing from endless battles will only makes us loose even more. From now onwards, I will become stronger, & protect each of you. And you must all become stronger to protect those near you. Will you do that?" General Hua MULAN
"He who wins his peoples' hearts, wins his nation. One who thinks he can take the world with a knife; maybe a victorious conqueror but if he cannot let his people live a good life and even if you are lucky enough to win; there will be thousands like me who will fight against you." Prince WenTai
"You once said that if you could give your life to end this war, you would do it." Mulan. "It's easy for me to give up my life, but it's too difficult to give up the woman I love." Prince Wentai
"Someone once said, if you have gone too far from home, you will lose your roots. If you have killed too many people, you will forget yourself. If you die in battle, your life will sink into the ground like "rain" and vanish without trace. And, If at that time you fall in love with someone, hope will blossom again from the earth and embrace a new life with passion! Thank you, Wentai." Mulan
Proposed Project: - Level 10 Precinct: Creative Arts Hub
Purpose: - A space provided for purpose of developing the community for creative artists to ===> "park" their "postal address" (something similar to the "rented space" at donkey wheel). ===> explore & develop their skills, ===> to exhibit their artwork/performances. ===> provision of workshops to attract members and public. (Connection with high profiles in the arts arena). ===> Middle person between established artists and aspiring artists. ===> Middle liaison between artists and Events Expedition.
Target Market ===> Aspiring New Talents ===> Established Artists (Venue for arts exhibition/performances) ===> Major corporations who sponsor community development within the cities. (Main aim: To establish connection between this two group)
Financial Sustainability: ===> Yearly membership from different interest ===> Space hiring (Lvl 10, Grd & Basement): Particularly for rehearsals, creative arts workshops, exhibitions ===> Equipment Hiring (Grand Piano, Drums, Stage Equipments) ===> Fundraising event: 1st proposal: "The Art of StoryTelling". (Purpose: Furnishing of Multipurpose rooms) ===> Receive certain percentage from Expedition Event as a venue "liaison".
Potential: ====> Increase the presence of "arts" around the building particularly Outdoor balconies (garden & Arrow 3), walls within the building, hotel area, cafeteria..etc
Extra income/benefit for other areas in Arrow. ===> Expedition Events (Exhibitions, performances) ===> Expedition Kitchen (Food & Beverage) ===> Arrows' Accommodation (For eg: During arts exhibition, arts conference..etc) ===> Connection with other Arts group in Melbourne.
----------------------------------------------------------------------- Link 1) Hope of Glory Church Starting Date: 1st Saturday of the month commencing in February 2012 What: Creative Arts Source: EWong
2) TinyToones (Hip Hop Dancers from Cambodia) Potential: Fundraising Purposes Focus: breakdancing, Hip-Hop music, and the contemporary arts as creative tools to empower the youth of Cambodia to live healthier lives free of HIV and drugs, build a more promising future by furthering their educational opportunities, and become positive role models for their community.
3) Person: Julian Phuc Passion: Has the desire to use arts (drawing, painting) as an alternative way to learning english in a creative and fun way. Ie, students get to hone their art skill and improve their english simultaneously. Target Market: International students/migrants Current Status: To come up with a proposal of what he wants to do for this year.
