Day 3: Can't wait

Day 3

Can't wait to worship God in the morning. :) Lord, I LOVE YOU!!! I will dance for you later. :)

Loving you to bits,
Doreen C.

A new beginning

Today I have begin a new journey. With a new heart and spirit, I shall blog down the worship and prayer time that I have started since last night. From now onwards, I will commit 1 hour each day, in praise & worshipping through dance and meditating His words everyday. :)

The experience last night was interesting. I wouldn't say that it was not fun, but it was interesting. Thank God for YouTube because I can just go on and on with playing the songs that I want. :) I find it easy to dance. I find that I have to remind that I am not performing for someone but I am doing this for God. :) There were some funny moments where I danced crazily like King David. :) I know deep within what I am doing here is not only changing my heart but it is also changing the spiritual realm. I am "fighting" the war, I know it. This experience of "waiting" is not the literal waiting but my dance is an act of trusting God to move, while I dance before Him. :)

Today, I woke up again to do the same. This time I meditated on his words.
i) I give you peace, the kind of peace that I only I can give.
It is not the peace that this world can give.
So, do not be worried or afraid. John 14:27

ii) You will keep in perfect peace Him,
whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord,
is the Rock Eternal. Isaiah 26:3-4

Blessed are those who seek His Face...
Blessed are those who trust in Him...
Blessed are those who obeys Him
Blessed are those who are contrite in their hearts..
Blessed be upon us who yearns after Him
with all that we have.
Blessed be the name of the Lord. Amen!!

Lord God, thank you for this peace. Indeed, there is authority in your word. Father, let me not be troubled or worry, but Father, as I turn my eyes upon you, I will see your grace and beauty. And all the things are the world will grow strangely dim. ;)

Youtube: Turn your eyes upon Jesus by Alan Jackson


Father, I trust in you. Trust that you are here for me and have already leading me in the process. :) Muaks! :)

Loving you,
Doremi

sick

ayai yai yaiii.. it's the 3rd day i am sick. I can't wait for the flu, sorethroat and fever and the heaviness to go away. What is not helping is one of my subject is due tomorrow. Lord give me strength to complete this.

Lord God, I have read Ezekial and I ponder on the judgment that you had for the neighbouring countries. Indeed, pride is one thing that needs to be dealt with. OMG.... I better look inward to see whether I have any.

So lethargic la.. don't feel like doing anything but cannot... theres' dance class lagi tonite.. how how how?

Lord, I need you.... hmmrrpppp

OMG

I need your mercy and grace now

I can do all things through Christ who strengthened me.. ;) AMEN!!

Loving you always,
Doremi

SHALOM

Isaiah said," The Lord will have compassion on Jacob; once again he will choose Israel and will settle them in their own land. Isaiah 14:1. He added," The Lord will gives you relief from suffering and turmoil and cruel bondage..... Isaiah 14:3.

Such words that give peace into my soul. Who am I that my Lord will care enough to lighten my weight. Indeed, He is God who will carry my burden.

What must I focus in? Can turmoil prevent God from rescuing me? Can sadness stop God from coming to my aid? No, Gods' love is above all things. God knows the deepest emotion and thoughts that are in me right now. He knows. In regardless of all this, God, how can I bring glory to your name? Father, I love you. I will be joyful in the midst of all this. Father, I want to overcome this, I want to excel. I will grow stronger each time because I know that you are carrying me atm.

Am I afraid? Of COURSE not, how could I when I know the Lord of all LORDS are carrying me. He is with me in the midst of this uncertainties. In His eyes, there is CERTAINTIES. I believe God HAS ALREADY KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON. I want to build up my faith in Him. To trust in HIM. Father, I do not want to waver in my faith but Lord God, you are all that I have. All things are meaningless. I shall let my Isaac Go. I know that you will help me to solve this. You lead the way, My Lord. I will follow you, trusting in you. Though I cannot see the future, but Lord, I know it is going to be VERY VERY GOOD.

Father, you have not failed nor forsaken me. I will keep on trusting in you, keep on loving. Father, heal this heart and renew my heart. I trust in you. Father, one needs to go through "suffering" to come out stronger. FAther, I may not see it now, but I believe you will revealed it to me.

Father, I praise you now. I thank you for everything. I want to say that I would not be here if its not because of you. FAther, let your will be done. I know at the end, it WILL BE GOOD. :) :) :) I will abide in you.

Shalom to me.
Peace be unto me.

Loving you always,
Doremi

Mercy before judgment

Dear God,

I have learn that you truly love us. You love me and many of my friends to bits. Your love is selfless. I cannot believe that you love me so much to willingly sacrifice your son to die on my behalf? What have I done to deserve this? Deep within, I know that I have done nothing but you have first love me.

I have learn that my life amount to nothing without you. It is completely meaningless if I do not have relationship with you. It is like the branch of a tree. How could the flower bear fruits if is is cut off from the source of water and nutrient that comes only from the root. Father, you are that root. How can the flowers sustain the heat of the sun, attacks from the insects if they do not receive resources from the root? Father, you are the root.

I have learn that I am not perfect. You died for me when I was the worst of the sinners. Tell me, if this is not senseless love. This love is growing less and less in the world. Your love far superseed the kind of love that is of this world. Father, Jesus came to accept and love me, not to condemn me when I was blind. Therefore, who am I to judge others. Oh please, I am no God. If God does not do it, who am I to judge others.

I have learn that you are merciful. You are a God of many chances. You ONLY judge (discipline) when we go beyond repentance. For you say, obedience is better than sacrifice. You say that you will forgive us when we repent. Father, seek in me, show me what I need to change so that I can be like you.

I want to be a part of your story. Father, show me and guide me. I want to go back to the heart of worship that truly matters to you.

Loving you always,
Doreen ;)

Going back to the heart that matters

GOD IS GOOD.

I AM GOING BACK TO HIS HEART. that' is what matters to me now.. all are just dust in the wind.. :)

YEY!

God is OMNIPOTENT... He is all POWERFUL Above all things

God is omnipotent.. All powerful. Just read the book of Habukkuk. Habukkuk was frustrated at how the evildoers seemed to prosper and oppressing the people of God. He questioned God of the injustice that was happening then. The Babylonians are the new power who had conquered the Assyrians, Egypt and now, Gods' people.

I like the courage that Habukkuk had. Just like David, he voiced out his frustration and anger at the situations. He did not understand how this good and God of justice allowed such thing to prevail. Out of his love and mercy for him, God answered him.

God said:
i) He is using the enemy to discipline His people who were complacent and far from Him
ii) The evildoers will not prospered forever. Judgment is inevitable. God is good and will judge those who are proud.
iii) Judgment is in Gods' hand and His timing. We are to trust in Him even in the midst of suffering.

Psalm 18.
Gods' mightiness in coming to save David when he was chased by his enemies although he had been righteous.

Chronicles of Narnia
In the midst of war, God eventually came out to save the princes and princesses. God was seen in the character of the lion==>Azlan.

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My observation
God is through to his words. When we are suffering, God is here to protect and show us clarity. When we ask Him in boldness, he will revealed to us just like how he did to Abraham, David, Moses, Elijah, Noah.

I am forever grateful that I have come to be a part of your kingdom Lord God. Without you, who am I today. All things are meaningless without you.

Father, I believe in you. I trust you. Though sometimes I may doubt you, but Lord I will still argue and question you. You are secure and you love your children to see your face in regardless of how we do it. :)
Father, I commit my work, relationship, family, future, dance and art, friends to you Alone.
I count all things meaningless until I make you are my number 1 in my life.
Father, lead me not into a place of testing, but deliver me from the evil one.

Loving you always,
Selah Doremi

COMBAT ANGERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Scripture

"You paid careful attention to the way we lived among you, and determined to live that way yourselves. In imitating us, you imitated the Master. Although great trouble accompanied the Word, you were able to take great joy from the Holy Spirit!—taking the trouble with the joy, the joy with the trouble." 1 Thessalonions 1:5-6

Observation
Paul wrote the above to encourage the congregation to take great joy from the Spirit when facing trouble. Trouble=> Joy.. Joy=>Trouble

Application
Phew... this is pretty simple eh.... OMGawd, this week has been tough, having to face with people with different personalities.


Prayer
Dear Lord, I want to surrender my anger and frustration to you. Thank you for your encouragement.. ie to take trouble with JOY from the Spirit... The joy with the trouble... :):):) Thank you Lord.. you are my peace, my sanity..

My prayers....

I am in the middle of "rest".
Though my head is hurting, but I am at peace.
I am listening to the song, "Still".
I am indeed SOARING over the FLOOD.
I will be STILL, know you are GOD.

Lord God,
I pray for Wisdom, O Lord.
I pray for your JOY
I pray for STRENGTH
I pray for PATIENCE
I want to ask forth for you PEACE that surpasses all human understanding.
Lord, there is no ONE like you.
Give me this heart to obey you wholeheartedly.
Give me a pure heart, eyes to see you, ears to hear you, hearts to FEEL YOU.
Lord, show me your ways
Let your will be done, not mine.


Lord,
I want to uphold dear dear unto your hands. Hold him, Father. Show Him that you LOVE HIM ABOVE ALL ELSE. You love Him until it HURTS you, O Lord. Father, I thank you for this LOVE, this abundance GRACE. This Joy that you have for him. Father, you have set your eyes on him looonnnngg ago and you want the best for him. Lord, please reveal your heart intention to him, right now. Even as he is working now, Father, please use him to bring joy to his colleagues. He is a man of joy, a man of goodness. I pray that you will reveal your truth to Him. Pls clear his doubt and anger on you, O Lord. Lord, you are GOOD despite the chaos of this world. Lord, show him the TRUTH of who you are.

Lord,
I want to ask you to protect my dearest best friend, TS. She is vulnerable, she is not what she is suppose to be now. I believe that you have so much more for her. Father, she shall rise up to be a woman of TREMENDOUS courage. Father, loneliness shall be far away from her. She will no longer fear men but you alone LORD. Father, you have set your eyes on her long ago. Father, please give me a heart to know her better. to accept her where she is now. I am no way better than her. in fact, she is better than me in all ways. Lord God, protect her as she represent you at her workplace. Give her GREAT JOY, love and acceptance. Give her PEACE that she needs. :)

Lord,
I want to uphold AB unto your hands. Father, he is attracted to you. It may seems he knows you, but his heart is opening himself to you. Father, I pray that you will create a desire in His heart to know you deep within. O Lord, have your way in Him, direct him all the way. Show me if needed be on how to be his friend. I also pray for Y to trust in you, too. Open her eyes to see you. :)

Lord, I pray that you will heal my headache on my right side. Father, I commit my all to you. Trusting that you are who you say you are. I love you dearly and I know that you love me very much indeed. Father, I TRUST IN YOU. I BELIEVE IN YOU. I PRAISE YOU ABOVE ALL THINGS. Lord, I am listening, just like Mary. I worship you with all my heart, Papa. Jesus, thank you for the cross....thank you for the nail-pierced hand. I don't think I can do what you did. But, O lord, use me to glorify your name up high ya. I am bought by a price, your life.

Lord,
I pray for the salvation of ALL MY FAMILY back in Malaysia. My papa, sisters family, ah boy, mer, yiyi, everybody at home. Lord, you are faithful to your words and I will trust you. You have already sent your people to them, one by one. Father, you are at work even when we are sleeping. Father, I call FORTH for Michael and Gabriel to protect them. AMEN AMEN AMEN!!!

Loving you very much,
Doremi

Chi Ba Boom

Another night, Chi Ba Boom ai ya ya.....

O Lord, Give me strength and peace deep within...
Give me the patience to resist the evil one...

Amen! :)

The Lord has spoken

Accumulative Events
- JJ lor... angry lor.... honesty lor... talk to KY.... spiral down lorr... grrrgrgrgrgrr.. self pity lorr..

The Lord has revealed the following to me during our prayer meeting just last nite.

Here it goes:
i) Image of Martial art, with strong spear skill ===> Strict Discipline
ii) "I have NOT DONE WITH YOU YET"
iii) Isaiah 8:6-8: Choose to listen to Gods' gentle guidance instead of choosing help from someone else.
iv) Look unto the Lord
v) Proverbs 29:11, Proverbs 29:22 ===>Anger Management to be reduced
vi) Proverbs 29:12====> Pride.... fall flat on my face.

Dreamt= a not so pleasant dreamt last nite===>anger and jealousy
On the street: Saw "Casper" carplate.... I believe God wants me to deal with my past.

Now:
Am reading the booking of Genesis: Story about Joseph.

Listening Points:
- I am a dreamer just like Joseph
- I go through ultimate suffering (unfair) just like Joseph
- I was "proud" and kena

What happened to me, I can relate to Joseph.

Making Choice:
- Instead of asking, "Why me"? but start to ask, " God, what can I do now?"
- Remember just like how God has been with Joseph, God is with me during this time of "suffering".
- I have to be prepared==== build my relationship with God... through my studies and personal time + prayers
- I believe I am made for more.
- God elevate Joseph for his responses, faithfulness and firm trust in God during all those times...

AMEN!!! AMEN!!! AMEN!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord God, I praise you above all thing.. indeed, you are my Lord, my God.. I will trust in you.. there is not one like you...instead of wallowing in my self-pity.. I will rise above my situations and be an OVERCOMER just like Joseph.. AMEN... Father, I want all things to reflect your GLORY... not mine.. AMEN.. I want your name to be glorified up high..

Loving you lots,
Doremi....:):):)

Decision Decision Decision

Decision Decision Decision
Which one do I choose?
Choose the blatant truth in front of me
or
Choose to be in faith?

To choose "denial"
or
To choose "the truth"?

Oh Lord, I pray for peace in me as I make this choice. Father, let me not be judge but give me wisdom that comes from you only.
Give me strength and boldness.
I need you like never before.

Please guide me, O Lord.
Please direct me, Papa.
Father, let me lean not unto my own understanding, but in all things, let me acknowledge you and you shall direct my path.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Papa.. hheeellp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The truth shall be revealed soon.. I know it, O Lord. for you are SOVEREIGN....

Be Still

Be Still and know that I AM the Lord.

Lord God, purify my thoughts.
Give me a new heart
Let me desire you, My Lord from deep within me

Father, may my eyes be focus unto you ONLY
Let me not be sway left and right
but let me pursue you with all that I have

Lord God, I am weak
I am lowly
I am nothing but mere chaff in the wind
But, who am I that you made me higher than the angels

Father, seek me, draw near to me as I do vice versa
Never leave me alone, I implore you, My Lord
Father, give me a new heart
Give me a new mind

Let all that I have, I surrender it to you
My love life, my work, my study, my family, my finances
To you, I return it all back to you
Let me hold nothing so tightly until I'm too far away from you

Father, seek me
draw close to me as I do so, vice versa
Father, let me not be a judge
or one who thinks I know better than others

Give me a humble heart,
A heart that see others better than myself
Give me a good conscience
Give me wisdom
Give me PEACE & JOY
GIVE ME FREEDOM

IN You, I place my TRUST
In you, I adore
In you, Alone

Loving you always,
Your one and only Doremi

ZZZZzzzzzzzz

Haaa.. no facebook till 1st week of Nov.. tooo loong...

going to sleep in 9 mins soon........... want to zzzzzzzzz.. tomorrow is a new day!!!

want to sleep... nom nom nom

zzzzzzzzz

going to be in kl in 3 months time... ok la... tidur ni

byeeeeeeeeee till we meet again

Sunday Sunday Sunday

Praise God, it is Sunday. I'm at dearest's home, waiting for dinner. Dear, is heating up momsys' yummilicous food that she cooked before she left. Am missing mom already. We are currently watching" Destroyed in 60 secs" and man, people are siow lar. Got nothing better to do. (as you can see, I don't really care about my grammar because no one really reads my blog anyway). ;)

Had a fantastic day at church. Though I am not physically well, but deep within I know I am loved by God. Bliss. My prayer is to see things from Gods' point of view. Ever since, I begin to do that, I can talk and look at KP in her eyes. I am accepting her, loving her like never before. :) Indeed, God is high and mighty. Whom am I but just mere sand?

How am I feeling now? I dunno, but I am at peace.

There is no words that can describe how I am feeling now. I am happy, not having to judge and be judged. :)
It is as if, I can accept and love all things. :)

Talk to you later.. makan dulu

love love

Selah

Was sick over the week.. hai hai hai.. apa la... anyway, slept the whole day on friday and half day on saturday. although i am weak physically, but my mind is active. I feel like going out, inventing new stuff. :)

What have I read this morning. I have been reading Genesis on the story of Joseph. Indeed, all those circumstances had made him a stronger and wiser man. He responded instead of reacting to evil. He forgave his enemies. What others meant for evil, God turn it to be good for Joseph. Indeed, God was watching over Joseph un-doubtly. ;)

I was already reading Psalm. :) Everytime David cried out for help, God rescued him. God protects him.

I was also reading the book of Isaiah. God is the one who will end the suffering that Israel had to endure. Peace will once again reign over Israel.

The above are some of my observations of who my beloved Father is in nature. Without Him, who am I. I want to be grateful for all that He is and has been in my life.

It is so easy to be discontent with life, but to look from His perspective, I have all that I want for in my life.

Of course, I do want a home that I can call my own and have more $$$ in my bank, but for now, I am contented. I want to choose to be contented and not compare. I want to enjoy life to the fullest. I want to appreciate my relationships and my work, my family and all that I have.

Selah

Shalom

Praise the Lord!!! :) :) :)

Doremi

mau tidur

weeeeeeeeeeeee...ngantuk bangat.. mau tidur non-stop.

what had happened? mom left after a month, flare dance production for 2010 sunday sudah finished over the weekend. a wholesome week, man. me super da tired. i need loads of rest to catch-up to. :)

hmm, maybe i will just take tomorrow off instead. that sounds jolly good. :)

read the story of jacob and rachel. :) I like.

It is so true that God who is a God of mercy and extremely patience with us. without him, we will have no way of becoming better.

what i notice about being Gods' children:
- there's always forgiveness of sins and repentance to restart life again
- God is MERCIFUL.
- God is EXTREMELY PATIENT with us
- We have to INDEED wait for GODS" PERFECT TIMING.
- We need to be PATIENT and in the same time, TRUST IN HIM
- We must NOT go ahead of GOD ie take decision on our own
- WE MUST HOPE
- We must be HONEST when we pray... God can accept us more than we know it
- GOD LOVES ME. I do not need to PROVE or earn my love by doing things
- I AM LOVED AND CHERISH..
- I AM PROTECTED
- I AM ADORE
- GOD IS WELL PLEASE with me..:)

OK la... gota chao// till we meet again

love love,
dodoreremimiiiiiiiiii.....

Rising up in the midst of STILLNESS with PAPA

Scripture


Songs of Songs 2:10-14

The Man

10-14 Get up, my dear friend,
fair and beautiful lover—come to me!
Look around you: Winter is over;
the winter rains are over, gone!
Spring flowers are in blossom all over.
The whole world's a choir—and singing!
Spring warblers are filling the forest
with sweet arpeggios.
Lilacs are exuberantly purple and perfumed,
and cherry trees fragrant with blossoms.
Oh, get up, dear friend,
my fair and beautiful lover—come to me!
Come, my shy and modest dove—
leave your seclusion, come out in the open.
Let me see your face,
let me hear your voice.
For your voice is soothing
and your face is ravishing.



Psalm 63:2-4
2-4 So here I am in the place of worship, eyes open,
drinking in your strength and glory.
In your generous love I am really living at last!
My lips brim praises like fountains.
I bless you every time I take a breath;
My arms wave like banners of praise to you.

Observation
God is calling his beloved to come out from her hiding place and soar with him. I can see Gods' love for me, his daughter here.
I want to be out of this "uncertainty", to be close to my Father like before. The feeling of hopelessness and uncertainty is so real but God has not called me to that, but for a greater purpose.

God adores his children. He adores me and He wants the best for me. This I must always remember. I must not let his death be in vain.

Application
Today, this has reminded me of how important I am to the Lord. I must not throw away the "death" that Christ has paid for me.
Such peace in mind.

Prayer
Dear Lord, yes, I remember. I will focus unto you and not the things/circumstances around me. Please continue to shower your love and grace upon me so that I can do the same for others. :)

Loving you,
Doremi

Loving you O Lord

Wow.. It has indeed been a while since I last blog!

I will be studying part-time for 2 years with International Christian Dance Fellowship. :) Can't wait. God is good ya. :)

Mom will be here soon, in a week time, for a month. Can't wait to spend some mom-daughter time together. It is indeed such a blessing for her to be here. :) Momsy is the best. :)

What do I want to see happening in the next 4 months?

- I want to grow deeper in the Word as well as in prayers
- I want to know what it means to be a true worshipper who worships from the heart..
- I want to worship in spirit and in truth.
- I want to bless others just like how God blesses me.

- I want to dance more.
- I want to paint.
- I want to see more creative artists in our community.
- I want to inspire and encourage others to use their artistic talents for Gods' glory.


Lord oh Lord, I want to be closer to you like never before. Teach me what it means to love and adore you just like Mary did before. I do not want to be Martha all the time but give me this heart to love and adore you. To soak in your Words like never before. I want to be here... listening attentively to your every words. They are indeed precious to me.

Loving you always,
Doreen C

Amazing Sunday

Indeed God is sovereign... The below are the reasons:

i) Simon talked to me about relationship without me having to ask him for advice:
- Do not be a perfectionist and creates unnecessary expectations
- It will take you forever to know someone, even after marriage
- Everyone makes mistakes, forgives just as Christ has forgiven you
- Give and Take is important in any relationship
- Trust in the Lord always, for He is in control of ALL things around me
- Whatever that is true, noble and right, whatever that is pure , lovely and admirable, if there is any excellence, think of such things.."Phillipians
- There is still hope, it's not the end for God is ultimately in control
- See trials as opportunities to know God more..:)

ii) Read a Cleo Mag in a super chinese hair salon. Mag wrote on males and females who are in different commitment level. It advices the female on what to do, ie to use the "reverse phychology" method. It affirms that it's not the end, there is still hope.
Realise that the mag belongs to a client. There is no way this mag should be here because the whole salon only has chinese mags.

I see the above two occasions as miracle and ways God is assuring me. How beautiful is our Lord. :)

I BELIEVE, LORD. That you will make way for me..:)

Loving you,
doremi

Believe in Me

Believe in Me
That I have plan ALL things goof for you
Believe that I will not Leave you nor forsake you

Believe in Me
Believe in Yourself
that good shall prevail
that the righteous shall avail



DC
I still Believe in doing Good
I Believe in You

bad spell

Not too sure why, but sometimes I will have my bad spell. When these times come, I will pray!

Indeed, I cannot do this on my own.

This is when the verse," Trust the Lord with ALL your heart; Lean not unto your own understanding but in all things acknowledge the Lord and He shall direct your path. Proverbs 3:5-6 helps greatly.

I do not understand why do I feel like this sometimes. I wish I am free from these thoughts. Indeed, Lord I need you so much more to be here to fight this battle with me. Hold me; Support me for I am weak. I need your grace and strength like never before. Please open my eyes to see you, ears to hear you. I cannot do this alone and I need you, holy spirit to be here for me.

Father, in you I place my trust. I desire you more n more each day. Cast away any form of distractions that are not of you. Father, capture my heart at another level. Father, I choose to desire you more and more.

Father I want to be an overcomer with you. Be my strength, be my joy. Be the reason for my song.

Loving you always,
Doreen C.

I steward, God Grows

Scripture

3 Put God in charge of your work,
then what you've planned will take place. (Proverbs 16:3) The Msg

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Observation

I love the word. The word that set one FREE. Indeed the reason I am still "alive" is because of the Truth. I love it.
One thing that I need to consider here is to list out what the word "work" meant for me. Work to me are all things or services that are done by me with whole intention and heart-filled passion. Work to me must be given the utmost care from the beginning till the end of it. As a whole, work to me must combine both heart and purpose.

What is my "work" atm? (Work = Passion = Suffering)
- Relationship with Joey
- Dance

What will I venture into for Sem 2?
- Arts

The above teaches me to give Father 101% total control of my "work", which means that I am to be the steward of the work while Father is the Giver of my work and also the one who fulfill the outcome of my work. It is exactly like a farmer. The farmers' work is to take the seed, plant it, and take care of the plant. The outcome of the plant will depend entirely on the DNA that is inside it and also the environment. In short, that is when you will hear this phrase: Let Nature takes it course".


Application

Alright.. I understand the first line. I am to allow God to take care of my "work". God gives, I steward, He grows..
Just like Doctor treats, God Heals.. :) I love it.. :)
Just like Doreen stewards, God Grows...:) hehehehe

It is only when I let God does His part, and I do my part, our work will flourish. Okay then, I will partner with my Creator from this very moment. Wow..How great it is to know that I have one amazing partner to do this with me. I will let Nature/God runs it course while I steward what I have been given.

Prayer
Father Lord, I trust in you.
You are my Lord, my God. :)
U are Sovereign and I place my "works" unto your hand.
I choose Freedom, I choose the Truth.
I choose you, but no one else.

Loving you always,
Doreen C.

HOt

THe weather in KL is super hot.

Funny thing is, I do have loads on time in my spare hand but I'm wanting to work.

I think I want to focus in enjoying my time here in KL. :)

Perhaps, the only person I want to meet up is Auntie..:) Will just meet up with the rest next Feb 2011.

CAnt wait.
lov,
dory

The truth shall set me FREE

Scripture

Psalm 116 (The Message)

I love God because he listened to me, listened as I begged for mercy.
He listened so intently
as I laid out my case before him.
Death stared me in the face,
hell was hard on my heels.
Up against it, I didn't know which way to turn;
then I called out to God for help:
"Please, God!" I cried out.
"Save my life!"
God is gracious—it is he who makes things right,
our most compassionate God.
God takes the side of the helpless;
when I was at the end of my rope, he saved me.

7-8 I said to myself, "Relax and rest.
God has showered you with blessings.
Soul, you've been rescued from death;
Eye, you've been rescued from tears;
And you, Foot, were kept from stumbling."

9-11 I'm striding in the presence of God,
alive in the land of the living!
I stayed faithful, though bedeviled,
and despite a ton of bad luck,
Despite giving up on the human race,
saying, "They're all liars and cheats."

12-19 What can I give back to God
for the blessings he's poured out on me?
I'll lift high the cup of salvation—a toast to God!
I'll pray in the name of God;
I'll complete what I promised God I'd do,
and I'll do it together with his people.
When they arrive at the gates of death,
God welcomes those who love him.
Oh, God, here I am, your servant,
your faithful servant: set me free for your service!
I'm ready to offer the thanksgiving sacrifice
and pray in the name of God.
I'll complete what I promised God I'd do,
and I'll do it in company with his people,
In the place of worship, in God's house,
in Jerusalem, God's city.
Hallelujah!

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Observation
I simply love it to the max. I love how David cried out to Father without much hesitance. I see Davids' courage and above all, OPENNESS. He hid nothing from Father. David wanted to let God knows how he feel inside. David is indeed an open book in front of God. :)

I see that David truly trusted Father to avenge on his behalf. David knew deep within that Father can saved him from the pit of death. David allowed Father to take the lead in bringing him out from trouble. Indeed, Father, out of his sovereignty, faithfulness, rescued David. How beautiful is this relationship here. The son depends on His Father. :) The son trusts His Father to stand up for him. And the Father heard and ACT swiftly, delivering his Son. :)

David wrote his psalm as an act of reverance and love for God. He wanted people like me and many others to hold hope and trust the Lord as He did. He wanted me to know that Father has indeed hear me and will come to my rescue. He wanted me to also celebrate in advance for He knew that God will deliver my soul from death, my eyes from tears and my feet from stumbling. Indeed, My God is YahWeh who rules forever and ever and ever.

Application
- Relationship with Father = Openness, courage to tell God how we are feeling inside, God is trustworthy, God will deliver us from pit of suffering, Gods' name is to be praised and worshipped both now and forever more, we love God by fulfilling the work that He has called us towards together with our people...........

Prayer
Father Lord, I will hold true to my identity as your daughter. Just like David, I will be opened to you, revealing all that is in my heart. Indeed, you have deliver me from the pit of suffering.. You are in the process of justifying me.. :) Father, I will place my trust in you, knowing that you are the one who will rescue me. Father, I pray for wisdom to differentiate the truth. U say that your truth shall set me FREE. Father, open my eyes to see, ears to hear and mouth to speak words to truth and that are life-giving. I ask for peace, u know, that kind of peace that only you can give. Thank you for loving me to bits. :) I want to see the truth... I want to be set free..:)

Loving you always,
Doreen C.

Fearless

What does it mean to be fearless?

11 You who fear him, trust in the LORD—
he is their help and shield. Psalm 115

The enemy always chooses fear to manipulate us. Our eyes are so engross in "this fear" till we cannot see the truth behind what God has made for us. The Word has again and again reminds us that we are to fear the Lord alone and all things pale in comparison to our God Almighty.

If my Lord is for me, who can be against me? Can death? Can fear of losing a relationship that important? Can loss time gives us fear?

What does it takes to be fearless of all other things that are below my Lord God? If God is indeed the creator and ruler of ALL the living and dead things, who should I fear?

The enemy always trick us into fearing the unknown, into fearing the created things

But

we are told to fear the Lord.

If our Lord is the only one whom we are to fear, should we be fearful of other things?
If I know that my Lord is for me, wants the best for me, what things or who should I fear?
Absolutely nothing!!!!!

God has foreknown me long before I was even in my mothers' womb.
God has listed me in his Book Of Life...
God has a plan for me way back then when He creates...
God knows me since the beginning of creation
My Lord knows it ALL..
Now, whom and what shall I fear?

My Lord I will trust in you, i fear you.
I place my hope in u.
U are my shield and tower of refuge.
U died for my sin and I am free because of you.
Open my eyes to see the truth and the truth shall set me free.
Father, give me courage, boldness to rise up to where you want me to go.

So, let it be. I DO.

Loving you forever,
Doreen C.

Father, I will focus in you. My mind shall stay focus in you.
You are my light.
You are my deliverer.
You are the reason that I am still alive.
I do not want to be like my idol who cannot see and hear you.

Truly blessed! :)

Scripture

Psalm 146

Hallelujah! O my soul, praise God!
All my life long I'll praise God,
singing songs to my God as long as I live.

3-9 Don't put your life in the hands of experts
who know nothing of life, of salvation life.
Mere humans don't have what it takes;
when they die, their projects die with them.
Instead, get help from the God of Jacob,
put your hope in God and know real blessing!
God made sky and soil,
sea and all the fish in it.
He always does what he says—
he defends the wronged,
he feeds the hungry.
God frees prisoners—
he gives sight to the blind,
he lifts up the fallen.
God loves good people, protects strangers,
takes the side of orphans and widows,
but makes short work of the wicked.

10 God's in charge—always.
Zion's God is God for good!
Hallelujah!
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Observation
I love it how David praised God all the days of his life. :) I want to be just like this. Indeed, Davids' life was surrounded by a lot of people who gave him practical advices but He knew deep within that He can only place his trust in the Lord Almighty.
David knew who is His DADDY :) He knew that God is the one who will blessed him with true and real blessings instead of having to go around life trying to make things work. What I can see is that David is encouraging us to depend on God instead of depending on self strength/might.

David further elaborated on who God is. He is the creator of all things, He is faithful and true to His promises, He is righteous, He protects the good, heal the blind, lifts up the down cast, protects the orphans and widows.... God is always in CHARGE, in control of all things. WOW WOW WOW!!!!


Application
My life is indeed in Fathers' hand. Father knows what I need and don't need. He KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR ME. Father will definitely take care of my all and I want to recommit my hope unto my LORD ALMIGHTY.

Who is man when God comes and tower all creations. Who can compare to my Lord? Noone.. My God is to be praised both now and forever more. Father, I love you.

Prayer
My Lord, My Lord, thank you for your loving grace. I want to know you more and say that you have INDEED been good to me and have always guide me when I am down and needing directions. Father, as I build my foundation in you, show me how can I be more like you each day. I want to make a choice to be like you, My Lord. This means there will be suffering. This part I don't really like but Father, I know that you will not place me in a situations where I am not able to bear. I prayed for my relatives to come to know you. Open their eyes to see, ears to hear and hearts to know you! :) Father, I want to be the light to those around me. U know what is best for me ya. :)

Praise be to our God, Almighty

I was given the below scripture on this faithful morning. The first thing that I do when I open my eyes is to praise the Lord! I do not know how and why, but this is what I want to do all the days of my life. I praise God for life! :)

Scripture

Psalm 138

Of David.

1 I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart;
before the "gods" I will sing your praise.

2 I will bow down toward your holy temple
and will praise your name
for your love and your faithfulness,
for you have exalted above all things
your name and your word.

3 When I called, you answered me;
you made me bold and stouthearted.

4 May all the kings of the earth praise you, O LORD,
when they hear the words of your mouth.

5 May they sing of the ways of the LORD,
for the glory of the LORD is great.

6 Though the LORD is on high, he looks upon the lowly,
but the proud he knows from afar.

7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble,
you preserve my life;
you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes,
with your right hand you save me.

8 The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me;
your love, O LORD, endures forever—
do not abandon the works of your hands.
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Observation
The Lord has answered Davids' cried for help. I can resonate with the gratefulness that David had for my Lord. Indeed, when God answered us, we are more than conquerer. We are bolder just because God, the mighty creator of the heaven and earth, the One who knows ALL THINGS, had came down and answered us. Oh wow! Just the thought of this give me great joy. How I pray that all those who are around me, will choose to believe and entrust all their "worries" unto the Lord or even, start to praise the Lord with all that they have.

God had delivered David from the pit of darkness. God rescued David. God is INDEED Davids' place of refuge. God had fulfilled his purpose for David over his lifetime.


Application
By reading the above, I am ASSURED that my life is under His control. Why do I allow doubts in when I know that I am standing in the shoulder of my Lord, the creator. Whom shall I fear? No one. Father is my Deliverer. I may not understand how things will turned out but one thing I know for sure, Gods' purposes will be fulfilled and I am looking forward to partner with Him. All other things can wait.

Prayer
To my most beloved Father, I love you, do you know that? I adore you. I desire you. Indeed, nothing can stop you from loving me. This I know very well. Father, I will choose to do your will. All other things are meaningless to me if you are not in it. Why do I have to waste time and do things with my own self-will power?

Father, my eyes are open. My ears are open. My heart is open to you. I want to learn, to grow, to create, to express all that you have given me. :) I want to live life to the fullest with you and my beloved ones.

Father, I pray for JC, KY, MC, EC, WY, TS, HK, KP, CJT to surrender their all to you. Father, may you begin to work your ways right into their hearts right now. I pray for healings for each of us who needed it. Father, do your work right now. May each of us begin to see and obey you with great clarity. I pray for grace and forgiveness among our community. I pray for immaturity to cease right now.

I pray for the below:
- not to judge others but to have compassionate and love them like how you will

Loving you always,
Doreen C.

Clarity at last

My Prayers are answered on Sunday, 9th May 2010 on 4.47pm.

My Lord is forever faithful. I was "tested" again. I was in the verge of spiraling down. I prayed and oh, how I prayed for God to help me. I want say that my Lords' faithfulness endures forever. Oh my Lord, How Great is Thy Righteousness. He heard my prayers and answered me. Praise Be to my Lord, both now and forever. The below scripture was given to me just last Mothers' Day. :) :) :)

Scripture
Psalm 143
A psalm of David.

1 LORD, hear my prayer,
listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
come to my relief.
2 Do not bring your servant into judgment,
for no one living is righteous before you.

3 The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in the darkness
like those long dead.

4 So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.

5 I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.

6 I spread out my hands to you;
I thirst for you like a parched land. [a]

7 Answer me quickly, LORD;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.

8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I entrust my life.

9 Rescue me from my enemies, LORD,
for I hide myself in you.

10 Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.

11 For your name's sake, LORD, preserve my life;
in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.

12 In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant.


Observation
I can so relate to David from the above psalm. David was wrongfully accused by the unstable King Saul. He was thus pursued by King David for no apparent reason. Saul was jealous of David and he knew that David will be stronger than him if not sooner.

I can see David was crying out loud to God for this injustice and meaninglessness. Just like me who is asking God for clarity and for Him to answer me immediately, David did the same. We don't understand why such calamity hit us but one thing we are sure is this, we belong to God. I know I have been faithful to God and just like David, I do not understand why we are put in such situation.

Just like David, my heart is dismayed. I am unsure but yet I am beginning to realise that my security comes from the Lord alone and not men, my future children, my work and all perishable things. Lord God, answered me quickly just as how David asked of you!! :)

I thoroughly love it how David still persists in doing what is pleasing to Gods' eyes instead of taking vengeance in his own hand. This is indeed a man who is after Gods' own heart. I want this too. He has also asked God to be the one who will take justice unto his hand. Why? Because David belongs to God.


Application
Wow! I just had an eureka moment. Just like David, troubles fall unto Him. He cried out to God, for God to take justice and not him. David wanted to do Gods' will and not take matter in his hand. A lot of us will want to be in control and go ahead of God but not David.
I can see that David accepted the situation he was in now. In his despair, He asked God to bring Him out of this troubles. He asked God to show him the way and his only desire is to please God and chose what is pleasing to Him. David trust God. David desired His will.
The below greatly mark who David was in the eyes of God:
- David seeks to do Gods' will
- David surrender the action to God alone instead of taking matters into his own hand
- David trusts in the Lord to give him the answer and to counsel him during this time
- David believe that God will save Him from his enemies
- David's know his identity is in God
- He knows that he is Gods' belonging
- He asked God to rescue Him just because God is who he is... God name will not be tarnished if David is rescued

What I see for myself is this: Yes, I am in a similar position as David. I do not understand why am I put in this position, but just like David, I will entrust God to be my saviour from my trouble. He will be the one who brings justice and MEANING and PURPOSE in this relationship and all I can do is to TRUST AND BELIEVE IN HIM RIGHT NOW.
My identity is in God and I believe that God will not put His name in disgrace because of WHO HE SAY HE IS. How can, you God? My main aim is to glorify GOD!
I belong to my God. You are my Father. I trust in you. All I need is to believe and for your name SAKE... for the sake of your name and your integrity.. Father, have your way.


Prayer
Father, I will place my trust in you. I will not act unless you ask me to. Father, I seek earnestly to follow your will for me. Teach me, guide me, prompt me, my best friend. Show me your way that is beyond humans' understanding. I ask forth for peace and wisdom to be with me. Just like King David, I have follow your ways before and will do in the future. My identity is SECURE in you and for you ONLY. Father, I desire to please you and noone else. Answer me O LORD.. Show me how can I partner in glorifying your name.

Father, I pray for clarity, peace, boldness.
I pray for joy, goodness, kindness, strength.
I pray for your wisdom. I pray for understanding.
I pray to do your will, not my will.

Be still and know that I am Lord, your God. Be Still...

My listening point
Don't do anything.. trust in me..
live by faith and not by sight
Open your eyes and see what I am about to do.
You will know and realise that only I, I AM who will be glorify above all things. I have the power to change the hardened heart. Be with me. Partner with me. Do not go ahead of me. Only do so, when I ask you to... only move when I prompt you. My sheep will know me when I call. :) You will know its me ... u know my voice...:)

My Lord, I love you. I desire your way. I will be still and know that you are God, My Lord.

Love love love,
Doreen C.

I will obey you!!! above all things.. even myself....

Unexplainable

The mood that I can best describe myself now is "blank". I am in the present moment of searching for clarity. I believe my Father has the answer and I am going to seek Him for that. I shared with my HC on Thursday that I am searching for clarity in my relationship. There is so many unanswered questions that I have with me and I do not have the answer.

I believe my Father has the answers to all of it.

Father, what do you want me to listen?
What lessons would you like me to learn?

I am here, My Lord, forever waiting for your answers. I feel like a chick waiting to crack its shell to face the unknowing world out there. Do I believe in the world out there? I feel as if I am inside this "comfort" for a tad too long and I want to be free, yet I am waiting for the right moment.

Father, I pray oh, how I pray to be know the truth. Father, you are the only one who knows ALL THINGS. I need you, I want the truth. I desire your ways. Father, let me choose the way that pleases you. Father, you know what, I will only move when I get a clarity from you. Father, just like how you have spoken to me before, you will too in my current situation. You say that those who draw nigh to you, you will also draw nigh to them. Father, your promises for me shall be fulfilled and I want to claim it from you. Father, you have given me a lineage for me to hold and I want to hold this. I may not understand the result but one thing is for sure, I will trust in you.

Give me courage, give me wisdom and joy. I will stand strong when I am weak. I will be truthful to myself. Guide me, teach and counsel me.

Love,
Doreen C.

.................contemplation

What does it means to give mercy to one person?

Ive done that, not by my might and power but by His spirit? Indeed, the voice in me is prompting me to "not pinpoint the speck in ones' eyes".

I can't wait to see what is going to happen next!

God may your strength be with me all the days of my life.

Love,
doremi

Reflections

My oh my, what a month. I would say this month has been challenging in the sense I know God is doing his works in "molding" and "refining" me. I am slowly peeling away the sense of pride from self-achievement, sense of "revealing the specks in peoples' eyes and anger. As I draw nearer to God, these have been revealed to me and oh, it is tough and "painful". God is constantly affirming me through Ps Tim, online sermons and metaphor (Farmer and the Seed). All in all, I am assured that I will not be put in a place of testing where I'm not able to bear it. :) The best of all is that I know my great Creator is in CONTROL of the situation and I am to REJOICE in the midst of it all. :)

I am eagerly seeking the path of Freedom and Peace. This I know I can get it from my creator. No relationships and accomplishment at work will be able to give me these. My worth is in knowing WHO I AM and WHOM DO I BELONG TO. My identity is in Christ and in Him, I shall be whole and secure. In Him, I can be who I am meant to be. In Him, I can be free.

Father, I pray that I will never get too far from you. Indeed my identity is in you, not my relationships, not my work. Father, may your peace that surpasses all human understandings overflow in me, through me. Reveal to me what it means to stay true to you. Show me your ways so that I can obey you. I desire to follow you all the days of my life and may you grant me joy above all things. May you open my eyes to see the beautiful creations around me. May you open my hearts to something greater than myself. I want to see...... I want to smell.... I wan to hear... I want to feel.... I want to just "BE".

Loving you from the bottom of my heart,
Your precious

Walauweh

Walau weh.. These few weeks have been "crazy". Not only was I drained physically, my mental health is also challenged. Indeed, God is sovereign and through all the added accumulative events that were filled with downward emotional spiral, deep within, I know it is a GOOD thing that God is doing through me. This is when the potter is doing a great work molding and refining me in the process.

... to be continued

Self-growth when I am on my own..:)

Dear dear just got home yesterday. While I was driving him home to HKs' surprise bday party, I kept "touching" his ears and nose just to be SURE that he is back for real. It is kinda weird or unreal that he is right here after being away at Brissy for 2 weeks.

During the first week being "single" again, it felt awkward. Both of us seems to be away from one another more these few months. While JC is away, I am finding my ways back to being single again. I like the thoughts of not having to cook that often. And best of all, I lost 2 kgs while he was away. It's not that I am depressed that he is away, it is just that my eating habit is simpler when I am on my own. :) To top it up, Ive successfully made over my room.;) Vola..;)

When JC is away, I get to find out more about myself. Good stuff happens when one is "single". For instance, I get to sleep earlier, eat whenever I like (can be a con too), meet up with my buddy, missy TS, do what I like and buy what I like..;) I have also learnt that my love languages are acts of service and quality time. When JC is away, it is tough not having to receive/give the two "acts of love". These I begin to realise about myself. Phone calls (Words) are not as meaningful to me compare to these two.

JC will be away again for another 4 more days. I will cherish the 4 days to the max! Ie, enjoy as much as I can. I pray that I will continue to good trend of sleeping early when JC comes back for long term.

ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz tired.........zzzzzz

O How I love .....

Many things had happened since yesterday. I am unsure of what actually happened but somehow, in some way, I'm tad too emo yesterday. Ask me why, I can only give you a "blur look". I was in a situation where my emotion just flared up uncontrollably. It is funny how when I am put in a sticky situation, what comes out of me is pure "ugly". Feeling of anger is one of them. Grrrrr.... Back then, I feel like "exploding". GGGRRRRRR!

At night, I tried to reflect on what actually happened. It become clear to me that I like "control" and indeed I am a perfectionist. I am one type who takes pride in what I do and with any tasks that are given to me, I will do my best to accomplish it. I dislike the feeling of "dropping the ball" because it make me real mad. Therefore, I know that if I am place in the corporate sector, I will soar up the rank.

But, ooooo my, God sure loves me. He knows me better than I know myself. He knows what is BEST for me. :) I know God is in the process of peeling layers and layers of DNA in me that has nothing to do with Him. The above is my DNA. "The Achiever". :)

I was reading the book of Joel this morning. He urged the people to turn away from their sins and to return to God. This I have been asking God for a few weeks now. I know as I walk near the light, the "darkness" that is within me will be revealed little by little. The above situation is one of the example.

But papa, you know what. Please do so as it pleases you. I want to be molded to be just like you. Anything that is not of you, please cleanse me deep within. I do not want to be proud, angry and bear the spirit of Jezebel. The moment I hang on too strongly to try to control things, that is when I am trying to be God myself.

I desire to livebyfaith.
I desire to grow in this community.
I desire love, forgiveness and joy
I desire peace.
I desire oneness & unity with those around me.
I desire to obey you.

Looking forward to hear from you soon,
Love,
Doremi.. :)

Consequences of making the wrong choices

Ive just read the aftermath of King Davids' fall. Just like any other men, he forgot his purposes and hence, fell to the trap of seduction and selfish needs, of desiring someone who does not belong to him in the first place. Because of his short term gratification, it resulted in murder and family feud down the generations. King David repented from his sins yet he need to face the consequences of his choices. 2 Samuel 11-13

Some of the questions that prod me are below:
i) What about my previous sins that I have committed?
ii) Do I have to face the consequences like David did?

It has indeed been a while. One thing for sure is that I know papa has forgiven me and embraced me back then. He has never fail to guide me in all the ways that I should go. In fact, He redeem me and am bringing me into this journey of true purpose and freedom to be what I am meant to be. He has given me an identity, a sense of belonging, of purpose, of destiny. He has NOT given me senseless expectations to meet but he has given me HOPE and COURAGE, LOVE and PURPOSE, JOY and PURE FREEDOM.

Papa, how I long to be near you. I long for your PEACE that surpasses all human understanding. I long to know your heart desire. Papa, I pray that I will not be too far away from you till I forget what it's like to hear from you. I am grateful for my families, friends and many people whom had crossed path with me. Papa, give me a heart that desire you. Make me into a woman who is after your very own heart. How that is going to work, I'm not sure but this is what I am praying for now. You say when I seek you, you will fulfill it. This, I believe so.

Much love,
Doremi..:)

Time to PRIORITISE

Dear Doreen's Blog,

This morning is a particularly special one for me. As I lay awake on my mattress with Tracy half-asleep beside me, there was this strong urge to pray deep within myself. Thoughts of wanting to get to know God and to desire Him more and more each day kept churning from within me. Oh, how I miss the intimacy that I have had with my Creator. I vow to pursue this intimacy again and this begin from my heart.

My beloved is faithful as always. It is nearly a month since I returned to this homeland of mine and yes, I have been (an still am) busy. I see so many opportunities for me to do this and that and I love every part of it. I am truly excited to be a part of it all. However, despite my busyness, I sensed discontentment within me. The sense of "burning out" is slowly gnawing into the very core of me. I truly dislike this feeling. This is when I realised that I am deviating from where I am supposed to do.
I realised that a closed girl friend of mine is going through the same patch as I. She was then referred to this testimony written by this brother in Christ, by the name of Jaeson Ma. The title of his testimony is "Everything Else Can Wait". He shared about him having to prioritise his work and not get swept away in the midst of busyness. He mentioned about this," If we do not have peace in the things that we do, a lot of times, it is not what God has called us to do." He urged many of us to PRAY before making major decisions to embark on new projects. And today, Jin Hwa, my good friend sent the exact same testimony to me and He sensed that God wants me to BE STILL and RE-Prioritise my work.

To add to this, my Lord directed me to the book of Ecclesiastes 2 with its subheading, " TOIL IS MEANINGLESS". The verse that stood out for me is vs 23 which is as follow:

"All his days his work is pain and grief: even at night his mind does not REST. This too is MEANINGLESS."

This verse stood out for me because I am in the situation when I am not able to rest at night. My mind is constantly thinking about work. This is no good.

The above are "signs" that has been lay out for me to make a choice. And you know what, this is my Sabbath. I will choose to obey. I truly know what I want to focus and that is in building my dance and to take care of my students, beside ensuring that the figures in our church are steward properly. I will have to begin to say no to new things that are coming my way.

Dear Lord, thank you for these affirmations that come from both my personal time with you as well as from the people around me. Indeed, you have spoken loud and clear. I will obey and choose to focus on the work that you have called me to. Father, I love you dearly and truly, I want to seek a greater intimacy with you. I want to know you inside out and grow with you. I pray for favour from my those around me. Give me courage to pursue what you have for me.

Father, I want to uphold my dancers to you, may you give me wisdom to guide them. Give me patience, strength and above all unconditional love.

As for my relationship with my dearest, I thank you for you have given me a PRAYER WARRIOR. May we continue to seek you as our source of love and wisdom for this relationship.



Loving you always,
Doremi...:) Smooches....



Unless the LORD builds the house,

its builders labor in vain.

Unless the LORD watches over the city,

the watchmen stand guard in vain. Psalm 127:1

I will rather choose FREEDOM

The Lord has reminded me this today.

To stay faithful to HIM and not be easily sway away by the lure of the world.

Today I want to surrender the below to my Lord.

i) My work
ii) My dance
iii) My art form
iv) My relationship with JC
vi) My finances
vi) My Desires
vii) My Family
viii) My House church and friends

I want to give these burdens to you, O Lord. Only you say that your yoke is easy and burden-free. I do not want to worry about this and be in control of all things.

I will let go of my control nature and be FREE to live life to the fullest.

I desires to do what I love and for now, I want to return to you and be at your feet, listening ATTENTIVELY to you.

If there things are beginning to bog me down, I don't want to hold onto it so tightly. At the end of the day, if I'm near death bed, these are just fluff/dusts in the air.

Father, I choose you above all things and relationships. Create in me a desire to love and adore you, a desire to obey you, a desire to want to know you more and more each day.

All other things or people who requires me to do this and that, I will begin to choose and stand my ground. I know you want me to concentrate on what you have for me and not do ALL THINGS. I pray against the spirit of having to please people. Let me please you above all things.

Loving you to the max,
Dory

Can't sleep

It's already 12.22am. Can't sleep! Arrggh..

My brain is busy with thoughts and unimportant things to do.

I will learn how to fast from working too much. I do not want to be a perfectionist and control freak. I want to let go.

I will let go but not be out of control.

I want to be away from "work" this Saturday after mentorship. I want to enjoy my life. I do not want to be worry about this and that.

Hmmm...

My Lord, I seek your wisdom. I seek to please you alone and not people. Lord, do guide me in setting my boundaries. I want to live free from having to do this and that.

This I will submit my all to you. I believe that you are actively reaching me, wanting me by your side. I am here Lord, just like Mary, who sat close to you. You have my entire focus and submission. Please continue to reveal your plan for me.

Loving you forever,
Your one and only

Clarity

I'm nearing the zone of burning out but Praise GOD, I realised it NOW.

I am so glad that I went over to Roshans' place. We ended up sharing our lives and spending time together with the Lord. I left his home feeling very refresh and above all, I took away this sense of clarity.

I realise that I have been giving and giving without taking much of a break. Looking at my timesheet now, I skipped my lunch most of the time. Somehow it gave me a sense of accomplishment to just kept "plowing" my work non-stop. Little did I know, God has made Sabbath time for a purpose. A time to take a break, refresh, recharge before the next "plowing" work begins. I will always remember what Auntie Kim has told me. "Doreen dear, we are running a marathon, not a 100m race. So, pace yourself". How true is this. I guess that I have to paste this onto my monitor to serve as a reminder to this "workaholic". :) Blessings and a curse.

From last night, I realised that I did not have any boundaries with my work. Hence, the feeling of tiredness sips in. As for this 3 days, I will be fasting from "work". By fasting in this category means that I will choose to open space for breaks and NOT say YES to all things that are put unto my plate. Above all, my choices must be made with the guidance of the spirit.

To add, I will disciplined myself by having devotion every morning, breaks for lunches, not to linger at the office after 5pm and to have a prayer time for my kids, family and dearest before I sleep. Oh yes, one discipline that I want to forge is to SLEEP EARLY. No more sleeping late for the sake of my health. I'm aiming to sleep no later than 12pm. Hence, which means that I must be at home by 10pm the latest.

I was led to the book of 2 Samuel 11:1 this morning. It started with King David who had chosen to stay home instead of joining his army for war during the month of Spring. Hence, the story of King David and Bathsheba commenced.

K. David was supposed to be with his troupe, fighting on behalf of the country but He is here, resting. He lusted after his own desires and committed many great sins.

This make me reflect on the current situation that I am in. I do know that this is a year of REBUILDING ie there is much work to be done here. If I am to say NO to every new things coming my way, I maybe risking something very crucial. This makes me think that I have to be wise and be selective. As much as I give out, I must increase my INPUT. The more I work, the more that I need to dwell in the presence of the Lord.... A worker that is working with very low resources will end up worst off.

Lord God, I pray for wisdom. I pray for courage. I pray for insights that are beyond my years. I want to desire to know you more than before not because I want to manipulate you so that my work can be completed smoothly. Father, I DO NOT want to be a workaholic or perfectionist or a people pleaser. In all my attempt to do this work that you have given me, Father, I pray that you will guide me to say yes and no when I am place in a situation.

Eureka: Say No to things that deviates from what I have called you to do. Concentrate and focus on it. I have called you to focus in dance. Arts will come later. This is the "work" that I have called you. Have the courage and peace. Stand firm in your faith. Go forth.

Father, thank you for your guidance. This I will obey...

Much love,
Doreen C.

A new meaning of LOVE

Scriptures
9-11So this is my prayer: that your love will flourish and that you will not only love much but well. Learn to love appropriately. You need to use your head and test your feelings so that your love is sincere and intelligent, not sentimental gush. Live a lover's life, circumspect and exemplary, a life Jesus will be proud of: bountiful in fruits from the soul, making Jesus Christ attractive to all, getting everyone involved in the glory and praise of God. Philippians 1:9-11

Observation
Paul was in prison when he wrote this letter of encouragement to the Philippians. He is indeed one who is selfless, one who think more of others than himself. I particularly like the way how he taught the Philippians to love wisely. I know many uses love either for their own self-interest or out of pure emotion but here, Paul taught them to love appropriately. The love that he magnified is more powerful than just pure "feeling" but it is the type of "self-lessness" love.

The way the world knows about love is always about feeling, selfishness but the love that Paul urged them to pursue is one that is full of wisdom, intention, genuine, tactfulness, being a role model to others, something that even Jesus will be proud of. The love that Paul encourages is one that is self-less, responsible and one that is always caring of someone more than ourselves. The fruits of this love attracts all to the giver of "love" and it is a love that involves the community and a direction to God. Whereas, the love that we know is all about making oneself or the couple happy which disregard others.

Application
Wow. This is so powerful. I will reassess my loving relationships with those around me.

Prayer
Father, I thank you for this wisdom that is more valuable than all the riches of the world. I will continue to seek your ways above all else. Amen!

What is to come

Wow... talking about being guided. :) I would like to share the following:

Last Thursday
- Lost 3 very important keys at work. To substitute one of the key will costs me AUD300. ;(

For a while
My shoulder was hurting due to my mattress. I'm wanting to purchase a new one and can only afford somewhere between AUD550.

This week
Jojo left for Brissy for a 3 weeks work assignments.

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Tuesday (This week)
- After much faith-filled prayers, my key was found by Jason. Awesome! Praise God
- Sent Jojo off. Sent his broadband card on time. Gonna have 3 weeks of vacation from cooking and meeting up with jimuis. How awesome is that. :)
- Ive bought a new mattress at the PRICE that I wanted. ;) hehehe AUD540+$30 delivery = $570

PRAISE GOD...

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Oh, how I love my work. How I love Papa's guidance. His love never fails and He is always true to His words. Indeed, this year will be a year of concentration on Words & Prayers. I am looking forward to grow in all 4 areas of my life:

Self : Personal Bible Study / Equipped Dance Skill/Books/Food and Exercise
House-Church - Mentoring / Words & Prayers
Community - My Work (Finance)
Mission - Dance Class in Arrow + Mentoring

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March till May
March
- Bible Study
- Mentoring
- Start Dance Class (Prep for next Sem: Jive)

April
- Bible Study
- Mentoring
- Dance Class (Jive)

May
- Waseh..

To be continued laaaa

I'm Home

It's already the second day I'm home. Work has been manageable and I'm glad that I'm back to where I belong as well. ;)

It is so true what Tim has taught us today. The extend of our growth depends entirely on how much we invest our time for others. We can only grow as much as we want others to grow alongside us. For a person who is comfortable at where they are, they don't see a point in helping others to grow, hence, their own personal growth is near to non-existence.

My room is in a mess. I am thinking of making over my room. Good one to do for year 2010.

Had a very interesting conversation with JC. Learnt many things about myself through him. :) Am glad that he is patient in listening and accommodating me. :)

Am looking forward to many more things to come, to REBUILD,

Lov,
dory

Time to return HOME

In another 7 days, I will be leaving my home in KL and be returning to my land that I loved. Indeed, I have eaten what Ive wanted, see and spend good quality time with my niece, nephew and family. Ive yet to see my close friends. Will be soon in just a few days. :) Indeed, God is gracious and has creates many opportunities for me to appreciate my time, food, family and friends. Ive couldn't have asked for more. Thank you God for this. :)

Indeed, things are not the same without my beloved here with me. The funny thing is that he is so far away from KL. I know he is there in Melbourne, being really taken care of, by my spiritual family. Thank you Karen & Heng Khuen. Thank you LIFE. Thank you Muhammad. :) Thank you, GOD.

I see Melbourne as a land of opportunities for me to shine and do what I love. The doors to go crazy with my love for dance and paintings are LIMITLESS. The best part of all is because God is in the same boat with me. To count the years that Ive known Him, never once have I been left on my own. What is "scarcity" if I know that God can give me whatever I ask for. The point is Ive asked not to get ALL things for I know myself far too well. I tend to appreciate things more when it is not easily given to me. If God has given me ALL the things that I ask for, I will never really appreciate them as much as I appreciate the things that are only given to me according to His Will. Up till now, I can frankly say that I DO INDEED receive all of these with a heart of gratitude.

Sometimes, I do really pray that my friends and family see what I see. I am still trying to understand the reason why many of us seem to shun GOD. If only they know that GOD truly loves us for who we are, do have the best purpose for us in regardless of our past, present and future. How could anyone not see this "unconditional" love/purpose? How could we be so "blind"?

Father, I pray that you will open our eyes to see you, our ears to hear you, our hearts to know you. I pray that you will be the one who break into our hardened hearts. May we become more and more like you and never allow any excuses or past hurts and griefs stop us from pursuing after you. Make us to become men who are after your very own heart. Forgive us, Lord, for our weaknesses. Indeed your love and mercy never fail. This, I have much to thank for. I pray that you will continue to pursue many of us who have left you somewhere near the corner of our hearts. Leave us not behind, but do send some brothers and sisters to kick us out of our comfort zone. In Jesus mighty name, I ask and pray.. AMEN!!!!!

To my dearest, and all my beloved family and friends (yes, YOU), thank you for mentoring, teaching, guiding, counseling, rubbing shoulders, tears and laughters and paving this road for me to learn to fall and to rise up again. Each of you have play a significant role in my life and I thank God for that. Without you, who will I be today? :)

Looking forward to another GREAT ADVENTURE IN MELBUM!!!!

With so much love and blessings,
Dory

True beauty comes from the heart

Scripture
7 But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things human beings look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7

Observation
Mom was with me this morning. We were talking about the importance of inner beauty compare to one who is only beautiful outwardly. I believe that inner beauty lies with the character of a person, which is more important than external beauty. What is the point of having a beautiful face yet the heart is filled with envy, contempt and pride.

The Lord has commanded Samuel to go and anoint the new king. When Samuel was in the house of Jesse, he thought that the first person he saw would be the anointed one. Samuel looked at his striking appearance but the Lord said that he is not the one. The Lord looks at our heart compare to many of us who sometimes tend to judge the book by its cover.

Application
In all the things that I do, I want to see things by faith. I do know that God has given me the ability to look deeper within a persons character than just a beautiful/striking appearance. This, together with the Lords' guidance, I will choose to see a person in accordance to how God sees them.

Prayer
Dear Papa, thank you for your wisdom. Yes, please help me to see like you do. I pray for wisdom that is above my years. I pray for guidance and love. I pray for a teachable heart as well. I pray to constantly build and grow in my character and not to focus too much on my outward appearance. Show me what it means to age gracefully. :)

In love with my creator,
Doremi

Obedience is better than sacrifice

Scripture (1 Samuel 15:22-23)

22 But Samuel replied:
"Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
as much as in obeying the LORD?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
and to heed is better than the fat of rams.

23 For rebellion is like the sin of divination,
and arrogance like the evil of idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the LORD,
he has rejected you as king." 1 Samuel 15:22-23


Observation
Saul was given a very clear guidance through Samuel to kill everything that belongs to the Amalekites. Saul obey half-heartedly. He spared King Agag and the best flocks after the war. Samuel went to see Saul and rebuked him. Saul gave excuses by saying that the spared the best flock as an offering to the LORD. He casted the blame on his soldiers as if they were the one who made him kept the goods. Never once did Saul reflect on his actions and repent thoroughly. There is no inward obedience but stubborn rebellion in Saul. God regretted that He has chosen Saul as the King over Israel.

Saul
- Never truly repent of his sins
- Gave excuses without taking responsibilities of his actions
- Blame others for his actions

Samuel
- Disappointed with Saul
- Faithfully and boldly informed Saul that his kingship will be taken away from him

God
- Regretted he has chosen Saul to be the King over Israel
- Is not a dictator but gave opportunities for Saul to make a wise and informed choice
- Am preparing David to be the next King

Lessons learnt:
- Obedience is better than sacrifice
- Half-hearted obedience is also consider as rebellion. God wants our 101% obedience
- If at fault, have the courage to admit our mistakes instead of blaming others for our unwise choices
- To truly repent thoroughly, learn from our mistakes and commit all our ways to the Lord
- If we hardened our hearts to pursue rebellious ways, the original purpose that God has for us will be lost


Application
I know that God has given me the resources to spice up my dancing skill. I know that he has open doors for me to build his creative arts in Arrow. I will commence my learning by this week.

Prayer
Lord God, I will obey you whole-heartedly. Forgive me if sometimes I tend to sway away from the things you want of me. Thank you for your love and grace. Please continue to guide and above all, pursue me. :) I love that. I pray that you will also pursue Jojo. I know he needs you. I pray that you will clear all the fogs, pains, pressures and past mistakes. I pray that you will bring men to lead him towards you. Father, you are our only hope and we thank you for this chance to partner with you to bring heaven down to earth. Guide us. Open our eyes to see, ears to hear and soften our hearts.

Loving you,
Doremi

Leader: The Heart of Obedience

Scripture
1 Samuel 14

Saul, Saul, O Saul. He is tall and good-looking. A perfect fit that looks like a king. But, he fails to uphold his kingship. Due to his disobedience, jealousy and rashness, he looses his kingship to a man who is after Gods' own heart. This man is David, the shepherd.

These are the things that caused a lot of things:
The leadership of a man depends entirely on his spiritual walk with God. When we see a failure in leadership, this means that there is a spiritual decay in one.

Obedience leads to many sacrifices but sacrifice does not mean it is done out of obedience. In all his action, Saul would only turned to God at the last minute unlike the priests. Saul was rashed in his decision-making. He did not admit his fault even when he made a wrong choice.

Application
I know that God has called me to build his creative ministry. I am slowly working on this area. God knows the desire of my heart (to be M) and just like King David, I want to trust in the Lord to fulfill it according to His timing, not mine. Obedience is better than sacrifice. :)

Dear Lord, I want to surrender my heart desires onto your hand. I do not want to be one that is impatient and do things at your expense. It will always results in hurting someone. I believe in your great plan and I want to partner with you. Father, may you continue to guide me and mold me. I would choose to obey you, place my trust in you in regardless. I surrender my will according to yours alone.

Loving you to bits,
your one and only...:)

Nasi Briyani, from my beloved

Wahseh..

So tired. Just finished dinner say about 30 mins ago. It's gonna be 12pm soon. My gosh! Been having late dinner but thank God for exercise too or else my waistline will go wider! :P Oh yea, Jojo cooked me Nasi Briyani.... yes, from scratch. We had around 20 mixes of Indian spices and by the time we finished it, we can feel our bowel ready to explode. Yes, from too much HEAT!.... Anyway, I will give it 7/10. Not too bad for a first timer. :)

What can I say? My body is aching. My eyes is droopy. As I was writing this, I can hear the "cling clang" sound as Jojo is packing the cutleries away. Today has been a restful day. Last night was amazing. We swam at MAC and had one of the most awesome dinner ever cooked by Charles. :) :) :) The food was restaurant standard, I tell you. :)

Wah, another 1 1/2 weeks to go and I will be back in KL, Malaysia. Can't wait to see my family, Bebe, niece and nephew and friends. I deeply yearn for a trip away just to relaz and not care about things. I need time to zone out from "responsibility", to be take care of at least for 3 weeks.

Oh no, Jojo just mentioned that his heart is feeling "weird". What to do? From too much "ghee". Ghee is a special oil blended with milk. Its a type of oil used for the nasi briyani. Told him that we are to used it sparingly but no, he wanted to finish the old can. Oh well, one just need to go through "suffering" to learn. :) Anyway, we all are the same, aren't we. That's human.

Anyway (got sidetracked), I can't wait to be home. Away from Melbourne. And the best part is I get to go back twice this year. :):):) hehehe.. okay dy, I need to zzzzzz... will talk to you later..

Adios amigo,
Doreen C

In Pursuit of Crown of Life

Scriptures (James 1)

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Those who doubt should not think they will receive anything from the Lord; 8 they are double-minded and unstable in all they do.


12 Blessed are those who persevere under trial, because when they have stood the test, they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

13 When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14 but each of you is tempted when you are dragged away by your own evil desire and enticed. 15 Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

Observation
James wrote this to encourage the congregation on how to persevere through trials and temptations. These wisdom provide the congregation a better understanding on what to do when they are placed in such circumstances.

Application
When tested, it is good to know that temptation does not come from God but we fall because we choose to go our own way. We know that God will provide a way out when we ask for it.

Prayer
Father, thank you for your words that give life. May these words be the source of my strength whenever I face trials and temptations. Amen!

Desires for Year 2010

My desires for 2010

To grow in the Lord
- Mediate His words
- Self Bible Study (with Jo)
- To pray more (with Jo)

To be healthier
- Food Intake = Exercise (Swimming)
- Sleep EARLY

To teach dance
- Sem 1 & 2
- 3 months each / 2 styles
- Movie Nites

To organise dance projects
- Annual Dinner (June)
- Talent Nite

To build relationships
- Housemates
- House Church

More to come.. but that's all for now.. :)

Love,
Doremi

Listening Points

Scriptures (Psalm 40) TNIV

6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire—
but my ears you have opened [c]—
burnt offerings and sin offerings [d] you did not require.

8 I desire to do your will, my God;
your law is within my heart."

Observation
King David was in a desperate situation where his enemies are seeking to kill Him. Out of his desperation, He cried out to the Lord. His cried is not out of a heart that does not know God but ones who knows God inside out. We can see it from the ways he listed out God's character in this psalm. Although I am not in a place where I am experiencing persecution, I'm very careful not to go down to a "comfort" level. To me, there is "danger" just in being too comfortable. I do not want to offer sacrifice that God does not desire. I do know God wants my heart and total devotion to Him and this is the very thing that I want to consciously give to God.

Application
Just like King David, I want to be mindful of where I am at. I do not want to be in a place where I am too comfortable. I want to desire more of God. Perhaps, one thing is to start to mediate His words.

Prayer
Lord God, I desire to do your will. Give me strength and focus to meditate your words. I know far too well that I can never do this with my own strength and that is why I am asking you for help just like King David. I will place my trust in you as you begin to open doors for me to act upon this now. Amen!

Scripture
" Now the Lord God had formed out of the ground all the beasts of the field and all the birds of the air. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds of the air and all the beasts of the field." Genesis 2:19-20

Observation
God created the earth and all the living beings in it. His ultimate masterpiece is Adam, who is made in His image. God is a relational God. He wants Adam to be involved in His creation. Thus, God brings Adam to his creation and gave opportunity to Adam to participate in his creation. Adam obeyed and whatever he did, it came to fruition.

Application
Just like Adam, God has given me a finance role. I can see that God has trained me and bring me to a season of management and implementation of finance structures in this community. I also believe that God is starting a new thing. A different way of implementing finance structures that is closed to His heart. Just like Adam, I will obey.


Prayer
Dear Lord, I would like to thank you for You have given me this opportunity to partner in your creation. I want to take hold of all the opportunities that you have given and do my very best with it. Please continue to direct, counsel, guide, mentor me in ALL YOUR WAYS. I will follow and obey them. :)

Much love,
Doreen C.

Cry from deep within

This is a story about a woman named Hannah. She was constantly ridiculed by his hubbys' second wife because she was barren. Out of sheer desperation and anguish, Hannah cried and prayed to God. She prayed for a child. The Lord listened and answered.
As the child was weaned, Hannah gave Samuel to the Lord.

I loved how Hannah worshipped God.

Scripture: 1 Samuel 2: 1-10
1 Then Hannah prayed and said:
"My heart rejoices in the LORD;
in the LORD my horn [a] is lifted high.
My mouth boasts over my enemies,
for I delight in your deliverance.
2 "There is no one holy like the LORD;
there is no one besides you;
there is no Rock like our God.

3 "Do not keep talking so proudly
or let your mouth speak such arrogance,
for the LORD is a God who knows,
and by him deeds are weighed.

4 "The bows of the warriors are broken,
but those who stumbled are armed with strength.

5 Those who were full hire themselves out for food,
but those who were hungry are hungry no more.
She who was barren has borne seven children,
but she who has had many sons pines away.

6 "The LORD brings death and makes alive;
he brings down to the grave and raises up.

7 The LORD sends poverty and wealth;
he humbles and he exalts.

8 He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
he seats them with princes
and has them inherit a throne of honor.
"For the foundations of the earth are the LORD's;
on them he has set the world.

9 He will guard the feet of his faithful servants,
but the wicked will be silenced in the place of darkness.
"It is not by strength that one prevails;

10 those who oppose the LORD will be broken.
The Most High will thunder from heaven;
the LORD will judge the ends of the earth.
"He will give strength to his king
and exalt the horn of his anointed."

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This has truly "opened" my eyes . It is truly not by our own merits/might that things happen. God sees and He blesses His faithful ones. God can rise up one and sent the proud down. God sees, He hears our cries. But, my question for myself is. What am I crying for? For injustice? For hopelessness? For His truth to be revealed here in this land that He has called me to?

Father, what do I have burden for? What do I want to see happening?
Truly, Father, I want to one day be able to see all your children rising up to take their role as your representative. Indeed, We are "IT".. not anyone else. Father, use and show me how to guide them towards this journey of self-discovery through you. Truly, I want to see glistening of hope and light coming from every individual. Father, I am not content with half-hearted people who simply live in their comfortable life. I want to encourage them to pursue you with all their might and thus, influencing the new generations.

Father, just like Hannah, I want to praise you and worship you. Even as I am waiting for my dearest, Father, direct, guide, counsel, mentor, teach me in all the ways that you want me to go. Father, you said pride comes before downfall. I don't want it. Father, lead me not into a place of testing but deliver me from them. Loving you! :)

In Christ ALONE,
Doreen C.
11th January 2010
LifeXP Office

Praise the Lord

I just want to praise God for His providence. My colleague and I are given the tasks of teaching and guiding the congregation for 2 Sundays consecutively. Last week is soso, but I am PUMPED for this coming Sunday.

INspiration upon inspiration come into me just now when I was preparing for it. The initial plan was to sleep early tonight and have it done tomorrow.

However, I woke up and started to type what I have in mind. I believe God has lead me to Acts 16:13-15. Hence, I started to write. Words, examples kept coming in. Praise the Lord... Indeed, to those who has breath, praise the Lord.

Father, I want to commit our Sunday onto your hands. Father, give me this courage to speak your words that is as sharp as double-edged sword. Father, I am your vessel and I pray for a humbling heart. I pray for a meaningful time with Auntie KL tomorrow and may the works the the office team do be of yours. Father, may we be led by the Holy Spirit and not do things out of our own strength.

Father, forgive me for my shortcomings. Do let me know , purify my hearts and mind.

Loving you always,
Doreen..:)