Jeremiah O Jeremiah!

Am going through the book of Jeremiah this season. What a book. I truly admire the boldness, loyalty and faithfulness that Jeremiah had in his calling. How many of us are able to wear his "shoes"? Not many in these days. But it is precisely for someone like him, I am deeply encouraged & INSPIRED.

I have learnt that success in the eyes of the world is nothing compare to the success in the eyes of my creator. To the world, Jeremiah is a failure; but to God, he is the EXACT OPPOSITE. Jeremiah was called by GOD to plant himself in the middle of the wicked city of Jerusalem & proclaimed judgement unto God's people. The Israelites were wicked, worshiped foreign gods and turned their backs away from the CREATOR. Many false prophets took the opportunity to proclaim peace within the country but they met their faith for proclaiming lies that were not from GOD.

Jeremiah, O Jeremiah, you have opened my eyes to what success means. I simply admire your pure "stubbornness" in pursuing something that is bigger than yourselves. Though you received many threats of death & physical humilation, you stood tall and firm in proclaiming the TRUTH. Indeed, God was your ROCK & the ONE who STOOD by you when you were in the midst of self-doubts, hopelessness, fears & not to mention, suffering to the point of wanting to just end your life. But you know what, your weaknessess opens the opportunity for me to see how my CREATOR had sprung to your RESCUE almost immediately after every frantic yells, you made to Him personally (frantic yells=prayers).

I could also see that my CREATOR had never leave you nor forsake you. In every moment, HE was there for you. Indeed, HE is true to this word & promises.

Because of you, Jeremiah, there were a few faithful remaining remnants who saw, heard and acted in obedience to the truth. It is because of you, they LIVED & FLOURISHED!

Because of you, Jeremiah, I am able to see the love & mercy that my Creator had for his "rebellion" children.It is Gods' very intention to bring his children back to HIM in the end. (Reality: Many who do not understand the Creator's heartbeat would have condemned that there is no God. Their logic is that a God who loves the world will not destroy it. But, if we have allowed ourselves to research more on the context of the story, the real truth is; humanity had chosen wickedness & rebelliousness in the first place). A God who is love & just, will not allow his "people" to spiral to hell. Therefore, He had no choice but to bring forth judgment. (Love, Judgement, Discipline are needed to correct a child. A loving parent corrects/disciplines their children; a people-pleasing parent will have a "monster" specially breed from home"

Dear God, thank you for teaching me lots from this book alone. I see & I will keep on learning as much as I can while I am here, still alive & kicking. What you have called me to do, I will hang on here and not let it go. The only time I will let go is so that I could let you do what you need to do BEST in that situation. Thank you for humbling, molding and refining me. I have to admit that it is embarassing sometimes but if it means bringing the best out of me for the sole purpose of advancing the work of your Kingdom, so let it be, My Lord. I am yours. Bless my work, my relationships and all that I do & think. 

Love you,

Your one & only 

My many many words; just for you ALONE

Feeling a bit down recently.

Not too sure why. It seems that I may have a lot of things to be grateful for but the lack of foresight in this seems daunting.
No wonder it is so true that when one may seem to have lots, have "nothing" in the end.
All things without God is meaningless. It is not that I do not have God but I do not sense him. I know that it is more than sensing him. Why this emotion? Why this feeling of "loneliness"? Yet, I do know that my Lord has never leave me nor forsake me?

I know by accepting this feeling that I have now is healthy. Also the acceptance of listening to the wrong "voice" within me is alright. It is all part of growing to know myself, to discern the "real/actual" voice within me. Why I am frustrated with this slow speed? I desire to enjoy these downtime for I know it is all part of the bigger picture.

My Lord, My lord, why am I feeling the way I feel now? Why the dissatisfaction with life? Why am I having this emotion, this emptiness within me? OR is it real and just me, trying to feel these emotions?

My Lord, My Lord, hear me out. Are you out there? I know that you are and you are listening to me attentively. There is noone like you, My Lord. Who can I put my trust? No one but you alone, my Lord. IN you I place my trust. In you, I desire to follow you all the days of my heart. Father, feelings & emotions can be deceiving but there is assurance, security, consistency in you!

Without you, who am I?
Without you, I can do nothing?
Without the "air" that you have breathe in me, I am lifeless.

Father, I am thankful for just being able to write my heart/thoughts for you. I know deep within that there is noone like you. I'm so glad that I can be all I am meant to be & not be someone else. Father, I adore you & desire you. I love you & you are the best thing that has ever happened in my life. IT does not matter what other people think of me, at the end of the day, everyone is too busy doing what they are suppose to do. You are my lover of my soul and there is no one like you! :) Father, I adore you, I love you, I HEART of you. Father, there is noone else but you alone! :)

Even as I am listening to these beautiful songs, they remind me so so much of you. Father, as I typed this with my bare hands, it is like words are flowing right from my heart just for you. Papa, do you know that I am serenading you, noone but you ALONE. It is like playing a piano, it is not about techniques, but it is a heartfelt song that I am playing just for you alone. Father, you are my favourite audience, do you know that? :) :) :)


Kanbattee...

Love love love,
Your one and only

To truly LIVE......

My Lord, I am so grateful for all that I have. My beloved family, my work, friends, my housechurch, my colleagues & Timmy, being healthy and having the ability to support myself, are all gifts from you. Indeed Father, I lack nothing. Though I am surrounded by a social norm which requires me to have a family & the security in life by now, but you know what, my beloved Father, you are my security & my identity is in YOU.

Father, this is your world and I am your daughter. I have never lack anything, my Lord. Your eyes have been on me from the moment I was formed in my mother's womb. Your promises to Abraham, my great great great great forefather still holds true up until now. I know deep within, I believe by faith, that my generations below me will be blessed, solely because of your unceasing, unconditional love for me. It is never by "work", but it is by this gift called GRACE that you have shower upon me all this while and for the rest of my life here.

Father, it is so true of what Timmy said over the Easter Retreat, if you have given me this great mission to stand up for the creative artists in your Kingdom, you will COMMISSION me to do so. You will provide the RIGHT representative with the right SPIRIT, MIND & ATTITUDE. It will flourish in your PERFECT TIMING. When October comes, it will be EXACTLY 10 years that I was given the calling to build this creative arts in Melbourne, this land that you have called me to. I would said that I have not stop pursuing this dream/specific calling that you have for me and truthfully, I wish it can be where I want to be. But, who am I kidding, deeds alone are nothing. What you have called me to do, I will still sow in it, FAITHFULLY! (by hook or by crook)

Father, I believe that when you do open the doors, no man can shut it. I have also learn that PRAYERS are the UTMOST MOST IMPORTANT THING in my life right now. Little did I know, I have begun to pray more than I even realize it these few months. It has almost become a second nature now for me to ask of you anytime I desire to communicate with you. Away with the religiosity mindset but bring in all the NATURAL WAYS that you want me to build with you, Papa. And for this, my Lord, I am grateful. If I am to die today, I have nothing to loose. All my supposedly "enemies" in this lifetime, have become my friends and will be, for the rest of my life.

Father, through you, I have learnt to forgive my parents. How silly it is to hold on to past hurts & grudges for the sake of pride and self? I am soo soo soo glad I did what you have taught me in your words. What is the point of living in segregation/outcast from the family just because I couldn't get over MYSELF? I am now REAPING the BEAUTY, LOVE, JOY, PRECIOUS & REMAINING TIME that I still have, with my parents & family. Lord, my Lord, you are the BEST. So so so glad that I "die" to self and REGAIN what I have lost before. :):):)

Papa, I love you.
I adore you.
I desire you.

The latest promise that you have revealed to me, I will entrust my whole being unto you.

Loving you always,
Doremi

Oh Papa..... Oh Father Abba....

Beloved Father, teach me how to come back to your heart? How do I have this heart of worship? Before I can ask how to bring others back to you, I need to back "home" to where I belong. Father, I do not know how to and I'm not too sure whether to start. But, may you receive this tear that comes out from my eyes. Father, I am so glad that I can listen to this wonderful music that touches my heart. Indeed, Greg Howlett's playing is amazing. It touches my heart.

How to I create movements that touches the core of every human's hearts? How do I, papa? The reason that I can do is only through a deepening of relationship with you, right? How do I do that? I love the flow of the music. The love that he has for you. I can almost feel the love relationship that he has for you, My Lord, through his music.

Where is mine?

Father, search me, O Lord. Search my heart. Search every part of me, my Lord. I have nothing to hide. You can see right through me. Let me surrender all things back to you, My Lord. I do not want to strive, to be control, to live life meaninglessly but I desire purpose. For now, I know what is my calling but I want more than that, my Lord. I want clarity, my Lord. Please guide me, direct me, teach me on where to go.

Thank you... My LORD.

Dear Papa,

I'm at peace...because I know that I am where I am meant to be.
There are so many questions that I desire to ask of you but really, do they matter now?
I rather sit beside you, listening to every words that you have for me, just like how eager Mary was before, sitting at your feet. I do not want to be like Martha (though I know there is season for that) but for now, I just want you, My Lord.

I must remind myself to count all the blessings that I have, Papa, memories from the moment I opened my eyes to this world. Though the world is not what it is meant to be, but I'm so glad that you have found me, Papa. I really do not know why many yearn not your ways for them. In you, there is abundant love & FREEDOM. I enjoy this freedom Lord, to be whom I am meant to be, not by works, but by "faith".

Father, I proclaim that today is a NEW DAY. What I did YESTERDAY has gone & tomorrow is YET TO COME. TODAY is a GIFT from you. Papa, open my eyes to see all the beautiful creation that you have CREATE for me. Give me a heart of thankfulness & gratitude all the days of my life. Papa, use me to shower your unconditional love & hope to those around me. Use me to speak of your love to every single soul that comes my way. Use me, my lord. I am here. :)

I rather be where you want me to be.

Loving you,
Doremi


"The more I seek You - Kari Jobe"

It has been a YEAR

Wow. It has INDEED been a year that Ive regained my life as a single lady.

Indeed, God has pulled me through this suffering. I have regained my life and have been FREE since. There was no more wasted tears and heartache. I am free to be who I am meant to be and to pursue the passion that I have been given since 2002.
It has been 10 years now that I was given the calling and honestly, Father, when will I see the "fruits".

Honestly, I believe you are showing me that it is not by might nor power but at the end of the day, the success is only given out of your grace. I believe you want to see just this. It is not what I have earned and worked for, but at the end of the day, success only comes from you.

Father, I do not know what my relationships never seem to flourish, even for the last one. I believe I have obeyed you in all things to the point of suffering and laying down my life back then. Looking back, I do not have any regrets for I know that I have indeed obeyed you in all areas. But, you know what my Lord, I am not afraid of the next one for I know you have the best for me. I will trust in you wholeheartedly, by hook or by crook. There is no Father in the world who will not grant the desire that their children have. When a child's heart is in alignment with the Father, their desires unite as one.


Father, let me desire what you desire. May your will be done on earth as it in heaven.
Let it be your PERFECT TIMING and I want to see supernatural MIRACLE happening for my upcoming relationship. At the end of the day, I desire for you to have all the GLORY! Show me how can I be your partner in making your name be glorified.
Loving you....:)

I will be patient,
Doremi79

No one will ever know the heart of a mom when their only child falls sick unless they become one. Tonight, I was given an opportunity to see the desperation of a mom and the mother of the mom. I do understand that a mom will go beyond all comfort in order to see their children be taken care of. I see it now.

I hereby, want to honor all the mothers out there for without you, we will never be where we are meant to be.
Thank you GOD for opening my eyes to understand our parents in the community much much more.

Thank you GOD. I'm humbled by you!

Love,
Doremi